hello!

yf camp is tomorrow, but somehow i’m not feeling that excited.. just alil worried about some things, and thinking about the past and wondering about the future.

well. i dont really know what to say either.

what’s past is past.

okay i’m v tired but i still have a lot of things to do. i haven’t packed yet.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just came back a few hours ago from tab church camp.. new experience, more friends, good fellowship. i was quite happy, and actually a bit reluctant to come back if i hadn’t been in the children’s programme :P

but anyway this year, things were really different, and i learnt to be a real nanny. cool huh. learnt from the real experienced people in tab, so i’m a fierce nanny if i need to be now. can call me for any babysitting jobs, just make sure your kids can take my shouting and discipline.

but honestly, there were times i felt quite weird doing all that. i mean, this is hardly what 15-year-olds do in their hols, go around helping for other churches’ church camps, and disciplining children in the strictest voices. it’s just different from what other people my age would be doing.

nevertheless, still worth giving thanks to God for! thank God He saw us through the 5 lessons through 4 days. v v v tiring each day, cos it’s v tiring disciplining the children. i myself need some discipline too. just sleep like a pig every time i got the chance to -_-

all the kids and teachers! :)

well, i really got to know the kids better this time. and, i actually improved my chinese! now i realise that i’m more comfortable talking in chinese (a bit more comfortable only), but still lots more to improve! :)

okay i’m v tired. still got some yf camp things to clear up.. after 1 week of waiting, things still arent done -_-

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m going off for tab bp’s church camp!

AHMA! :) just one more week to tahan.. jiayou! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m currently watching a show called The Moment of Truth (on Channel 5).. cold hard cash really brings out the worst in people. it’s so horrific to watch people spilling the beans just for money, and they’re just not ashamed about what they have done. it’s a horrible world.

for money money money.

horrible horrible horrible money.

well, it reminds me of the judgement day that every single soul will have to go through when the day comes — the truth, the whole truth, and only the truth will be asked and our consciences will bear witness of our sins. in that day, there will really be only the truth.

what a scary day that will be, if we are not washed by the blood of the Lamb.

sends chills down my spine. :(

byebye apple-pie..

hello.

when past sins catch up with you..

“Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart.” (2 Timothy 2:22)

when you grow numb to your sins.. it’s horrible.

byebye apple-pie.

hello.

work is good. work helps you to forget. work distracts you from distracting things and makes you concentrate. work helps you to meditate on God’s Word and not on other things. work is very good.

thank God for work.

okay i’m not working now (like a job) but i’ve been doing other things (i.e. housework -_-) which do help me to take my mind off stuff i should not be thinking of. instead, i revise other psalms that i have memorised to see if they are still in my memory.

today till saturday are work days! becuase i have tons of school work not finished. vbs took up a lot a lot of time. but i’m sure the Lord has reserved His blessings for those who took time off to serve Him.. :)

i hope i wont be distracted and will be able to focus on doing my work.

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

i was angry and hurt and miserable and unhappy and sad and grieving and pained and sorrowful and dismayed and distressed and disheartened (okay not that bad) but.. the joy of the LORD is my strength!

jealousy is a horrible sin. and it is really a sin of the pride of life. it just keeps growing and growing when you do not put the sin behind you and turn away from it. without seeking God, it’s just a snowballing sin which can only grow bigger — just like all other sins.

the struggles are always painful because you really feel like forgetting and letting go. but when i do not seek God’s will, and simply turn to myself and look for a way to go, it just becomes more and more unclear and i just get lost by myself.

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i’m not in a bad mood. i’m just in a thinking mood even though i’m quite tired.

honouring God is not always as easy as it seems to be..

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i need rest but i just cant sleep :(

vbs start today was horrible, found some things broken, and i had to cause trouble to cmc people to check if it was their kids who did it.. sometimes i’m really so tired when people don’t communicate well because of their lack of initiative. :((

heard about the psle results too.. my heart kind of broke, but still, thank God for His providence. sometimes you never know God’s will in your life until these things are past. pray that they will be able to accept this as part of God’s plan for them!

i feel quite detached from everyone too.. no time and no energy to sit down properly to talk to everyone, or i just cant click with them. trying to make the break, but i’m not sure if i can do it.

am i doing it all by my own strength? no wonder i’m failing.. and when i am faltering, i still will find You there..? i’m getting lost..

i’m really discouraged.. :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m finally back in the afternoon! i felt as though i haven’t been home for so long! and i’m still v tired, but much better after taking a short nap.. i took half an hour to get to sleep -_- i think i’m a fussy sleeper (just like how i’m a fussy eater and drinker).

anyways i wont be around for most of december, going off for tabernacle b-p church camp from 7-11, yf camp the next week, then family trip to KL, then Christmas! my parents will be off to korea next week, so i dont get to see them properly until 3 weeks later :(

“I must work the words of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.” (John 9:4)

tired, but let us continue to press on, for the night is soon coming!

can’t wait to get out of singapore and leave behind the distractions! but i’ll be back anyway :(

never learn to treasure the friends i have.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i find it weird that i’m blogging now, because i still have many things to do.. i think it’s really when i’m so busy that i find so much joy in looking back on my day and seeing how God’s grace has seen me through. it’s a blessing to be able to commit the whole day into God’s hands, and at dusk, look back and know that it is not of your own strength that things have been done..

today was.. a busy day, obviously, but more importantly, there were certain things that i had thought about.

i realised that silence is a good way to deal with things, especially when you don’t know what to reply to what somebody has said. and this is esp applicable for me cos i tend to be very rash with my words. silence is a good thing.

well, i have also learnt that it is best to do what i have on my hands well, and wait for God’s will in more things.. right now, at this point in time, what i have on my hands (that i consider as important) are studies, family, children (kids in church), fellow pilgrims — and my duty is to make sure that i do well in keeping my Christian testimony.

“Abstain from all appearance of evil.” (1 Thess 5:22)

sins may not be crimes, but they are still sins. the world will judge for the crimes of the people, but God will judge the sin of the world.. i pray that i will not be a stumbling block to others — it may be but the appearance of evil, but it can and will stumble others.

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the vbs will be starting tomorrow, and my preps are not done :S just a bit more, just need a bit more time. i really really pray i will be able to wake up on time tomorrow, otherwise i am dead.

okay byebye apple-pie!

hello!

finally going to sleep after a night’s worth of working. who said secondary school students are free during their holidays? work as hard (or harder) than uni students having their exams okay!

just kidding (about working v hard). but yes, i’m still working hard.

anyways i thought i might as well write down some lessons i’ve learnt in case i forget them (cos i’m growing old and forgetful),

1. envy is a sin, and it will eat you up from the inside — sometimes envy can’t be seen, it’s a sin from the heart. but thoughts will become actions, actions become a habit, and habits make a person’s character (i learnt that in chinese class).. and it’s true, envy will only make you feel worse and worse.

10th commandment says not to covet — rev quek said it’s as if God is saying that whatever is not included in the first 9 commandments, it will be covered in the 10th. indeed the lust of the eyes, the lust of the flesh and the pride of life are really tempting.

2. pray more — i just keep learning this again and again. never tires. when you’re in trouble, seek God. when you’re tired, seek God. when you’re just lonely, seek God.

seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you. blessings come from seeking God through His Word and through prayer.. so seek God more!

3. artists are egoistic (heh).

4. i need penmanship, according to a particularly egoistic artist. (just some random things.)

5. God’s grace never runs out. the song, Grace, really reminds me of this constantly. indeed, His will cannot lead me where His grace will not keep me. His grace is everywhere i am, for He is indeed an omnipresent God. so it’s a reminder to me to seek after God’s will in everything that i do, that i may do His will.. for there, grace abounds.

i find it especially comforting, also, that when i am faltering, i still will find you there, because God does not let go of His children once they falter. instead, He lovingly leads and guides them back, makes them stronger each time they fall..

let go, let God!

okay 5 things that were learnt/happened yesterday (it’s 2am now).

later, i will wake up at 8, and i will go to church and do 1001 things. in the speed of lightning. just kidding (when i’m tired, i talk a lot of rubbish). people cant even travel at the speed of light. they can only go less than the speed of light. people are bound by time and space because we were born in time and space.

dont you think God is really great. He exists out of time and space, and He controls time — He helped the Israelites to win a battle by stopping time.. not bound by time or space? simply unimaginable, isn’t it! God is wondrous.. :)

okay i better go and sleep..

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i woke up on time ^_^ it’s 30 days, or 742 hours, or 44568 minutes to Christmas eve as of this second. but before that, i wont be at home for a month. zoooooooooom!

hello..

Lord, as I seek your guidance for the day, I find my thoughts unyielding, confusion crowds my way,

But then when I bow to You, the challenges You guide me through, Your promises are ever new, I claim them for today.

Your will cannot lead me where your grace will not keep me, Your hand will protect me, I rest in Your care,

Your eyes will watch over me, Your love will forgive me, And when I am faltering, I still will find You there.

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what comforting words.. truly, sinful creatures like us do falter and stumble many times, but God is always gracious to allow us to stand up again under the shadow of His wings.. what an almighty God we have. :)

anyways, thank God i have also really found my joy back in singing. before, i sang to please men, and that gave me a lot of pressure, and took out all the joy there was in singing.. but when i turned back to God, there is more joy with every note that i sing. sing unto God.. :)

this whole week will be v busy, and the bdc team is leaving on thursday (before netball! aww!).. seeking God in prayer for strength!

ahma, please get well soon! :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i added a new page, But God, so you can take a look! it’s sth like a personal sharing of how God has blessed me through the verse.. not v in depth, cos most of the people around me know how the verse has really spoken to me. :)

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oh yes, i thought it would be good to include in here before i forget.

thank God especially for yesterday’s yf agm+elections. to me, it was a hair-raising event, i had heart palpitations once or twice, actually. truly, prayer for wisdom and grace is really needed, to seek God’s will in the direction the yf should take. heh, at least i have another 8 years (if the Lord should tarry) before i graduate to yaf ;)

small committee, younger yfers.. “… for there is no restraint to the LORD to save my many or by few.” (1 Samuel 14:6c)

:)

hello!

today was the most sotong-ish day of my life -_- (must record down in case i ever have a more sotong-ish day), cant believe the things i did! the mistakes i made.. which resulted in 4 v unique souvenirs.

but aside from that, thank God for the concern of fellow pilgrims, and their patience aplenty. i dont know what was wrong with me either, just woke up out of slumber i think. think too much then suddenly have to meet other people, breaks the trail of thoughts and leaves Yours Truly lost.

well, thank God for seeing the yf through agm&elections. another year is about to pass, 107 is coming back to yf (yay!), and 3 other Es are leaving.. we all move on. just trying to get the spark to get me going.

kind of feel myself letting go too. thank God.

sunset! point-and-shoot cameras really cannot bring out the brilliance in God’s creation, unfortunately.. but at least they do store up memories!

okay tomorrow is vbs briefing, so i should be sleeping earlier (hmm) so that i wont be as sotong as today -_-

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m v v v tired and my arm is really aching. babysitting is not so glamorous after all ;) got drool all over my shirt and limbs! 妈妈真的最好！children really suck out all your brain power!

but after one whole day of work i feel kind of empty. funny feeling.. dont really know how to describe it. i’m only 15! why am i wasting my time thinking about all these kind of things?

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Christmas is coming in about a month’s time. this year-end period always brings back some good and bad memories, but thanks to God for seeing us all through..

1. 1st ever missions trip — Kemaman!

2. vbs! every year the same thing, quite tiring, esp to serve in the organising committee. but God’s blessings do come with serving “in the front line”. :)

3. yf camp! yf camps are always.. a time for spiritual nourishment and to revive your lives, making sure they really revolve around God’s Word. they are also a time for us all to reflect on the years we have been Christians, and see if and how we have grown — will never forget my 1st yf camp when i was so hot tempered haha. so embarrassing + funny at the same time. ^_^

4. Christmas eve. every year the choir will sing our famous cantatas, but this year.. somehow, i think it wont be too different, but every week, choir seems to have become a burden. but i’m slowly getting the joy back.. slowly slowly!

5. Christmas carolling! :)

6. 2nd ever missions trip — Cambodia! nothing special, but i was blessed to be able to go with the C family and my bro. good company = enjoyable trip to serve God! :)

but somehow it will all be quite different this year, i think. i dont know, just hope i wont be distracted by the things/people around me, and i’ll be able to focus on Christ!

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i woke up quite a few times in the night to find that my whole right arm was numb. it wasnt in any weird position, so the blood flow wasnt blocked.. must be all the babies i was carrying yesterday :P my fingers are also like ice. so cold!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

“Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it. Vanity of vanities, saith the preacher; all is vanity.” (Ecclesiastes 12:7-8)

been pretty busy doing a lot of prep work for the vbs, but it gave me a lot of time to think, esp when i was doing a lot of repetitive work like cutting out shapes, etc. recently J went for her school’s grad night, and the only thought that came to my mind after everything: vanity of vanities.

spent so much money on clothes, accessories (clutch, hairband), going to a nair palour to get nice toenails, just for a night out with people who are all doing the same thing — vanity, isn’t it?

oh well — only one life, ’twill soon be past, only what’s done for Christ will last.

i’m just happy i’m spending my time doing things that will count for eternity, even though they can be really boring things. as unto the Lord! :)

anyways,

10 and 9, 8 and 7, 6 and 5 and 4, call upon the Saviour while you may! 3 and 2, coming through the clouds in bright array, the countdown’s getting lower everyday! hee :)

cant wait for 2011! graduating away from secondary school (YAY) and something else special! just cannot wait :)

meanwhile, will have to live each day with desire to please the Lord :)

off to do work! byebye apple-pie!

hello!

yesterday was such a good and bad day for me.

in the same day, i lost the joy of singing, and found it back again. i finally feel things are returning to normal.. but we never know.

thank God!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just realised i haven’t blogged for almost a week! so many things to do, finally all done! :)

thank God the academic year has finally come to a close, i really couldn’t wait for school to end. not that i particularly hate school, but i just dislike waking up so early everyday. lazy bum. :S but truly, thank God it’s all over. i can’t wait for O levels! :)

went to ECP yesterday after babysitting at FEBC :) it was good having supper at carl’s junior then walk walk a bit. L is so cute! he learnt a new word yesterday, bubble! we were playing with bubbles yesterday, so he learnt the word :D E E and E were all also so energetic even though it was so late..

so good to be with God’s people :)

well, my hols are going to be packed with a lot of prep and events, not really la, but somehow it just seems v busy and tiring. there’s vbs, then there’s yf camp, and a lot of prep work in between, plus studying also. it’s going to be a busy holiday!

better than doing nothing at home :)

okay i’m hungry. byebye apple-pie! :)

hello.

i hate it when people give up on me, or seem like they are :( i’m trying not to disappoint, but i find it so difficult and hard to keep up with everything. sometimes i even forget why i sing.. not good! :( sometimes i really feel like giving up and just letting go of everyth then just sing normally and like everyone else. sing for what. sing also sound so horrible. even laoshi says so. and i can be so difficult to teach.

dont know why the two laoshis are so patient with me. i would have been fed up with me long ago and just kicked me aside.

“But he knoweth the way that i take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.” (Job 23:10)

my good friend going off tmr :( so sad, my good good friend flying away and leaving me here in sg. sian.

“My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?” (Psalm 22:1)

“Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” — but even then i will never feel the loneliness the Lord Jesus Christ had felt on that very day He had died for our sins.

i think sometimes i forget what i’m asking for, it seems like i really am asking for trouble. sights and sounds which are attractive are often times the way that leads to death.

“But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.” (James 1:14-15)

sometimes home can be the very place i’m discouraged too.

“Thou makest us a strife unto our neighbours: and our enemies laugh among themselves.” (Psalm 80:6)

okay i’m tired. dont want to think anymore. i need a break (not a kitkat!).

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” (Psalm 37:4)

God’s will is the best way.. :) glad for God’s revelation of His will in my life. just pray that i will follow it even though it may be difficult!

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i’m so tired. reliving the same nightmare every week. never know how to let go and let God.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i cant wait for 2011 for quite a few reasons!

one, so i can attend a very very very nice wedding (yay) :) testimony of God’s grace and mercy!

two, so i can graduate out of secondary school and move on to jc! i feel kind of desperate to get out of secondary school. don’t really know why either, but anyways, it should be fun studying for O levels.

i think i should start a countdown to 1 Jan 2011 for fun, or 31 Dec 2010. sth like that, make me wait in anticipation. right now, it’s.. 422 days to 31 Dec 2010, or 423 days to 1 Jan 2011 :) yay and it will soon zoooooooom by in no time! so fast!

but of course, only if the Lord tarries.. :) but coming to think about it, the rapture will be far better than any of these things. thinking about it always makes me happy :)

can you believe it?! it’s already november 2009. time really passes so fast, but in a good way i guess. i started this blog 6 months ago, with a total of 128 posts (including this).. i cant wait for Christmas! but vbs and yf camp before that :)

anyways i finally finally uploaded the photos from my camera, and i saw a full moon yesterday, but it was v cool! it reflected some colours (like a rainbow) around the clouds beside it,

cool right! but the camera really really doesn’t do justice to the scene i saw last night.. you could really see the vibrancy of the colours etc. kind of disappointing..

but it’s okay. at least i saw it :P

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

it’s been a while, or at least it feels like it’s been a really long while! school is still continuing, and i’m trying to get back my mood to study. hmmm :S

anyways thank God for night class last night, it will be quite a while before i can attend them again, cos i dont really know if i can manage my time well enough to go for next year’s night class for the first semester.. committing all into God’s hands!

learning to sing is not an easy thing :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

today was results day but i didn’t bring back my report book cos i didn’t hand in the travel plan form -_- anyways i couldn’t get the scholarship cos i was just short of one position, but it’s okay, i’m still eligible for bursary! thank God, from whom all blessings flow :)

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The Master hath come and He calls us to follow;
The track of His footprints He leaves on our way.
Far over the mountains and through the deep hollow,
The path leads us on to the masions of day.

The Master hath called us, the children who fear Him,
Who march ‘neath Christ’s banner, HIs own little band.
We love Him and seek Him, we long to be near Him
And rest in the light of His beautiful land.

The Master hath called us; the road may be dreary,
And dangers and sorrows are strewn on the track.
But God’s Holy Spirit shall comfort the weary;
We follow the Saviour and cannot turn back.

The Master hath called us; Though doubt and temptation
May compass our journey, we cheerfully sing,
“Press onward, look upward,” through much tribulation;
The children of Zion must follow their King.

The Master hath called us in life’s early morning,
With spirits as fresh as the dew on the sod.
We turn from the world with its smiles and its scorning
To cast in our lot with the people of God.

The Master hath called us, His sons and His daughters;
We plead for His blessing and trust in His love;
And through the green pastures, beside the still waters,
He’ll lead us at last to His kingdom above.

The Master hath called us, the children who fear Him,
Who march ‘neath Christ’s banner, His own mighty band.
We love Him and seek Him, we long to be near Him
And rest in the light of His beautiful land.

We love Him and seek Him, we long to be near Him
And rest in the light of His beautiful land.

—

one of my favourite songs that the choir has sung. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

will edit tomorrow when i have all my results back.. much to thank God for! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

life is not all that good, but thank God for the peace that passes all understanding. feel very weird sometimes. i kind of miss studying. helps you keep your head off a lot of things.

be sober and vigilant.

i feel like saying a lot of things that i know i will definitely regret saying here later on. the blog is not for my own personal use. it’s for God’s glory and therefore i’m not going to say anything here that i know isn’t good for my Christian testimony!

burdened heart.. but God knows!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m v tired, and i’m going to sleep right after this even though it’s dinner time.

anyways this week hasn’t been the best week, i feel quite far from everyone. so close, yet so far (sounds cheesy but it’s true). even when we’re all squeezed together, it just feels as though i dont belong anywhere. it’s hard to overcome obstacles, because i dont think i have any more energy to do all that. people dont have energy to pull me across either.

it’s okay.

i tried my hand at designing clothes for fun. i purpose in my mind that i’m going to learn sewing so i can do sth cool. hmm if i have the time!

my head is spinning!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m having a throat infection (the normal sore throat thing), and i’m quite tired cos of a full-day course (which i still have to go through for another 4 days!). oh well. not really enjoying myself since we all get so lethargic so easily.

anyways i went window shopping yesterday. looked at some baby clothes and stuff for Christmas (guess for who!) :P going to save up soon so i can afford to give sth from my heart! :)

i was thinking about church camp again cos i was listening to the church camp messages (for the third time already i think haha). almost 6 months have passed, going to be yf camp now! still a bit apprehensive, still a bit worried, still a bit of everything.

i think sometimes i can be such an ah-girl and an auntie and an ahma all at the same time.. never know how to let go of things, never know how to stop worrying, never know how to stop looking back.

then ten years later, when every thing is passed, i’ll be looking back at 2009 and wondering why i was such and such a person. it will be all funny then when i’m trying to recall what happened that made me so uptight in the first place. that will be the day (if the Lord doesnt come first!)..

feel as though i’m slowly changing into someone who’s a loner and doesnt belong anywhere. hmm dont know if that’s a good thing or bad.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

there’s a cockroach in my house! and my mother is the cockroach-buster who’s supposed to pass her skills down to my brother who is horrible cos he has lousy aiming. hahaha and i’m sitting outside here doing stuff on the com ^_^ my mother caught it! :) yay ma ma zui bang!

anyways exams are over, thank God for seeing me through all of them! now i have a lot more better things to do (i.e. prep for vbs, tab church camp).. cannot wait! but also need a lot of tedious prep and thinking through, esp for the vbs! so need to jy also. yf camp too!

going for monday night class! :):):) haha finally have time to go for both!

time passes so quickly. another year has past. what a bitter-sweet year.. :)

thank God for it!

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello!

:)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength:” (Isaiah 26:3-4)

not feeling well again. woke up too early -_- but it’s okay. anyway H’s PSLE is over so i’m feeling quite happy for her ^_^ thank God for seeing her through it. may God see me through my exams too.. :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i took away the video. G says Andrew Lloyd Webber is a heretic because of his Jesus Superstar or sth like that, a musical He wrote. she said it had a theory sth similar to that of Dan Brown’s Da Vinci Code. :( oh well sth new i learnt!

hello!

deleted my cheesecakemusings. thank you auntie.. :)

anyways, i took two papers today, they weren’t as hard as i had thought them to be.. thank God really! cos i went for night class the night before and had less time to study. but i still think studying God’s Word is important, and i really wanted to go for night class. so thank God!

i went for some shopping in the night. i really didn’t know i was so picky with clothes.. haha! after 1h 45min, i had only bought two things.. and when i reached home, i realised that the shoes i bought were of different sizes! which means i have to waste time going back and exchanging the shoes! :(

but anyway. nice shoes. so at least i dont feel so angry. heh.

okay need to go and sleep. tomorrow is study study study! except i have to go out specially to change the shoes! :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

brooooooooom brooooooooom on motorcycle from night class to home! it was freezing cold tonight but it was good. kept me awake.. :)

:) still enjoying God’s blessings in the midst of my exams! thank God! tomorrow’s a difficult emaths p1 and ss p1. i think it’s going to be a difficult day..

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thine ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6 (i think). no time to look up the actual verse!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

haha i shouldn’t be on the com.. but anyway, today i saw two distinguished guests who thought i was v popular! hahaha so funny.. :) made my day just to see them!

anyways i got 2nd place in another essay competition, which i didn’t even know i had taken part in (hmm).. praise God from whom all blessings flow! :) i was just thinking.. cos i had to pay for a lot of things this week, that if i honour God, He will provide for me, and indeed He has! :)

even though it’s not always smooth when we walk with God, how He blesses us so many times! :)

verse for the day!: Psalm 138:3, “In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.”

i like how lukey’s grandma always sings ’step by step’ when people walk him around.. step by step, step by step, keeping step with Jesus; every day, all the way, i will follow Jesus! slowly learning, slowly walking.. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m looking for Mary Lynn Lightfoot’s version of Dona Nobis Pacem. i really really really want it, but I’m not sure if I should buy it online cos I’m not sure if I want it that badly :P anyway, it’s a really beautiful piece, so if the children’s choir or even the church choir can sing it, it will be really wonderful.

it’s not a solo piece btw!

exams are just round the corner and i’ve to study v v v hard to continue going for prayer meeting, night class, tcf and yf. shan’t spend any more time on the com (i spent 1 hour looking for the score online but i only got half the score of Dona Nobis Pacem -.-)

everybody please jiayou! busy month for all of us :):):) AHMA JY :) AUNTIE ALSO :) (although it’s your break now!!!) ABEL’S MUMMY (if you see this!) and for people who are sick (papa/ahkong/uncle!) please get well asap. keeping you all in my prayers :)

verse for the day: Philippians 3:14, “I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i really miss those days when i have the time to update every day! hahaha but thank God for keeping me busy too! an idle mind is the devil’s workshop! but of course a busy mind isn’t always devoted to God.. but pray that our minds will be! :)

hello! :)

i’ve won the competition! thank God! :) but i was a bit sad that this was won through voting rather than through a panel of judges actually judging the writing.. but anyway, this is a first step to something new, so thank God! can’t believe my siblings were so enthusiastic for me.. they got so many of their friends to vote for me that within one day, i had doubled and almost tripled the second place no. of votes!

:) so sweet of them! but also means i have to share the prize with them :P

anyways, this week has been quite a whirl for me, didn’t feel so well on monday and thursday (and had to skip night-class! :S), and had my Chinese paper today. hee last night i learnt quite a few idioms to use in my compo ^_^ haha thank God that’s over! :)

fastfoward to 1:52. the soprano’s voice is perfect, even though i don’t really like her dressing.. was searching for the perfect piece, none was as perfect as this. just wish it was a choir singing though ;)

okay byebye apple-pie!

HELLO.

URGENT AND HEARTFELT REQUEST! :)

http://www.wazzup.sg/contest/entries.php?contestID=34 PLEASE VOTE FOR ME WHEN MY ARTICLE COMES UP. cos if i win or sth, then i will get to go to ntuc writing dept or sth like that and learn about the press holdings, etc. which is quite cool. but anyways.. all glory goes to God if i should win anything! :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. MY ARTICLE IS UP, PLEASE VOTEEEEEEEEEE! thanks :)

hello! :)

All things bright and beautiful!

this is one of the many things i’ve been dooling in school.. :P and i scanned it in and added in the words (but they’re not v nice cos the full version couldn’t fit into the white space :S). the sea creatures are obviously not real representations of what’s really in the sea, and the turtles look weird.. but it’s okay cos i can always do another one :)

okay need to do my homework on Ruth already!

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello!

today was a horrible day in school for me! i was feeling v sick and dizzy in school, and i took a cab home cos i was afraid i would vomit in the bus if i had to squeeze with everyone else or sth. so anyway, thank God i did that cos 3 minutes after i reached home, i vomited!

i’ve officially learnt my lesson never to wake up at 3am in the morning -.-

but through it all, thank God :) taught me to really trust in God and depend on Him for strength.. after the vomiting, i slept for 3 hours in an air-con room. blessing in disguise, methinks :)

anyway i just realised that it takes 25-30 min to get home from school if you take bus, but if you take a cab or car, it just takes 10 min. speed of light! zoom zoom zoom.

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Happiness is to know the Saviour, living a life within His favour,
Having a change in my behaviour, happiness is the Lord.

Happiness is a new creation, Jesus and me in close relation,
Having a part in His salvation, happiness is the Lord.

Real joy is mine, no matter if teardrops start,
I’ve found the secret — it’s Jesus in my heart!

Happiness is to be forgiven, living a life that’s worth the living,
Taking a trip that leads to heaven, happiness is the Lord.

i just wonder how many people can say the same thing i can! a child of promise, a child of God.. :):):) blessed assurance!

sunset!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

these few days have been v busy for me, thank God for strength and grace :) ate nice katong laksa with nice people yesterday. :P

anyways thank God for the church quiz which really helped me to study and learn God’s Word, even though i was kind of disappointed that we didn’t do very well.. but i learnt to be content ;)

after our group finished the botanic gardens round, we came back only to find that two other groups had already reached, so i said sth like, “Why didn’t we get first?!” immediately after that, i got hit by a leaf or sth when no one else sitting under the tree had been hit. :P lesson learnt!

well, being able to go for prayer meeting and night class always reminds me of God’s presence in my life, esp that it is His grace that gives me strength to keep awake and to learn of His Word.

thank God also for fellow pilgrims that walk the journey with me, even though some of them are much older, and i really look forward to the time the younger yfers can also walk together and grow together like this! :):):)

never thought things would go this way when we all left the old church. is not our God providential and loving? :)

:) byebye apple-pie!

P.S. Peanuts!

unique!

hello.

i dont think anyone missed me in school yesterday (it’s 12am in the morning now), especially not the teachers. hmmmm. i wonder what that means.

anyways i just watched Survivor: Somoa at 11pm. it’s v interesting how the human mind works cos they’re all so cunning and slimy etc just for money. and sometimes not even for the money, just for the sake of irritating and annoying people until they cant stand you.

i think i do that sometimes. or many times. i’ve got a lot of cynism and sarcasm and some teachers have talked to me about it and others have hinted. :S

argh. byebye apple-pie..

hello.

thanks to all for their condolences and well-wishes. i’m doing fine, thank God. just quite tired and sleepy.

nothing much to say other than i’ve a lot of homework to do, so i’ve got to get on with all of them. and study for church quiz also (AHHHHHHHHHH).

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

i created a new blog, http://cheesecakemusings.wordpress.com/, to talk about different things in my life in writing form, cos sometimes i dont really know how to speak about things the way they are.. and i guess writing comes more naturally and helps me relieve stress too. go to the blog and you’ll see why i named it sth so random (not really actually).

anyway today was quite a horrible day, not really cos i got scolded (but yes i did get scolded), but because i was quite distracted and everything. oh wellllllll!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

going into full study mode soon. but at the same time also thinking about many other things. sometimes i feel so distant from everyone. people in church, people in school, people at home, people everywhere. and sometimes i think i’m antisocial too..

its esp funny when i try to be more well-behaved sometimes then people think i’m antisocial, and when i’m my usual self then i’m too hyper. i don’t really know how to strike a balance either. but i don’t to be “my usual self” cos it’s that which i don’t like. always disturbing and irritating other people. :(

better be antisocial than be a pest ;)

byebye apple-pieeeee.

P.S. dearest ahma, please don’t worry about me :)

hello.

what a day. but when i sit down i can only remember what struck me most and how i have sinned again and again against my heavenly Father. :(

想珍惜别人却不懂得怎么珍惜。好失败。

i wish i could do sth to show that i’m sincere but i sometimes feel my words are lies themselves. time spent trying to figure on what goes on in others’ minds and feeling confused myself. lost.

just forget everything and study.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

just for the sake of trying out, i would like to see if there will be many views if i type in random and nice key words i think people would search on google or sth. but i dont really think it will work. just trying anyways :P

food cheese apple Hitler Singapore legs feet hand burger computer IT fan piano speakers tissue paper mechanics letters websites pie skies clouds kites love eating digested ingested super onward narcissm interesting flying dreams poo shock running badminton playing Google find floor America heights bungee jumping hurling Ireland Sri Lanka keyboard malls Jurong school university duper fantastic absolutely wow roar blog egoistic counselling council assosiation angel Charlie (LOL) man woman ability brain arm finger plaster fingernail Mythbusters (yay) printers Sony Ericsson Nokia M1 SingTel Acer HP Suzuki how to blast your toilet bowl

HMMM i ran out of ideas towards the end heehee.

but anyway i doubt this will work hahaha. okay enough of randomness.. :)

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“Hear my voice, O God, in my prayer: preserve my life from the fear of the enemy.” (Psalm 64:1)

i’ve been thinking about this verse since prayer meeting on wednesday, and truly, it is the fear of the enemy that keeps us from doing so many things. well, the fear of the enemy keeps us from trusting God — personally, i fear old age a lot, especially with the diseases that come with it..

but as i thought deeper, i remembered that God is in control. when we give our lives to this sovereign God, we know that all things will work together for His glory. what greater privilege do we have to be part of His will? even if i get Alzheimer’s disease or some horrible illness, God will glorify His name through me.

“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)

God is good.. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello :)

thank God for the outing yesterday, and yes, i’ve gotten my mother to excuse me out of a two-day workshop (which lasts from 9am-5pm!).. so i have time to study (and relax).

anyways, back to the outing! thank God for the opportunity to share.. really helped me to think back on 2009’s 9 months so far and thank God for His blessings and things He has taught me. truly the Lord is good and greatly to be praised.. :)

“My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.” (Psalm 73:26)

well, actually i could have thought of more than just 2009.. it went all the way back to 2007 where i first joined the yf properly (hehe).. so many things i’ve learnt, and i’ve really seen myself growing! :) it’s even funny to see myself being so childish and naive last time.

thank God also for good fellowship, talking to 107 also helped me to think back upon the blessings of God, and really appreciate the many things i’ve learnt in 2009. thank God for friends who are loving enough to admonish and help me grow in the grace and the knowledge of Christ. :)

“Whoso loveth instruction loveth knowledge: but he that hateth reproof is brutish.” (Proverb 12:1)

must learn to learn! haha :)

suspicious cannon we saw there :P okay no, it’s just some mechanism for the dam haha -.-

okay byebye apple-pie! :)

P.S. yesterday night, i was thinking just before i slept that if i ever had to have a funeral (i.e. i die before the rapture), i would want Abide With Me to be sung (18/08/09 post!). :) beautiful song with such comforting words. :)

hello.

i’m learning to love and be loved.. in quiet ways. :)

so many things have popped up, suddenly everything seems so uncertain. but yet it’s again so certain that God takes care of everything because we are always His children. once saved, always saved — the perserverance of the saints! anyways that poem was written last night cos i was feeling a bit detached from everywhere.

“Know therefore that the LORD thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love and keep his commandments to a thousand generations.” (Deuteronomy 7:9)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. CANT WAIT FOR TUES :)

I looked ahead and I gazed — the Cross before,
I turned back and I wondered — the World behind.
The Cross beckoned quickly, my heart to take,
The World drew me backward, for my soul it pined.

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The Cross, O so rugged, what a merciless climb,
The World, O so tempting, what a luxurious escape;
The Cross, O so painful, what a labourous journey,
The World, O so alluring, what a charming facade.

-

I sat, and pondered, which path to take,
For richer for poorer, never to forsake.
My heart looked upon all before me,
And I soon began to see.

-

The World in all its captivating sights,
Brought merely temporary flight.
The World in all its wealth and glee,
Only to ensnare, and cause to flee.

-

Surely there must be a better place,
My heart in uncertainty cried out.
I searched high and low,
I went all about –

-

Finally, my eyes turned to the Cross,
A magnificent sight to my soul which was lost.
Burdens are lifted at Calvary,
My soul was set free.

-

The Cross before me, the world behind,
A stranger I walk, a pilgrim in mind.
Each step I takes only leads me closer,
To my heavenly home, to my Heavenly Father.

-

Singing as I go, all praise to my God,
For mercy and salvation to me have been brought.
My heart would sing glory, my mouth would give praise,
For He guides and leads me through all that I face.

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hello!

just thought of that. off to sleep now, it’s Holy Communion tomorrow!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i was too lazy to wake up to go. but i may be going on monday since i have [no choice but] to go for a geography supplementary lesson. so i may just walk around in jlp in the morning.. nice :)

people are so interesting. sketching people is also interesting! :) will edit later if i get the time. btw i just cleaned up my shelf (90% done) :) my table etc also v clean. yay :)

i cant wait for tonight’s Bible-study on Revelation :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

methinks i’m going to wake up at 5.30am tomorrow and go around to jurong lake park to catch the sunrise. peace and serendipity. hmm i wonder if i will wake up though. i really hope i will! sleep early and wake up early.. :D

anyways i’ve been in a Race and Ethnicity Awareness Programme in toa payoh these past two days, was quite interesting but v passive and just dry at many times so i kind of got bored and started doodling around. i specially brought a book the second day to draw, so i shall show you :D

pardon the lack of artistic beauty.. :) ignore the comments haha :P

ugly hands. i drew this while waiting in the bus for some guy who wasnt coming -.-

random signs and stuff i saw along the way. then just some other sketching in the toa payoh HDB hub.

some notes and some more drawing.

yay. okay i’m going to sleep already. sleep early wake early. :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. special new theme to fit in those doodles :P

hello!

i cannot wait for 8 september! OUTING DAY as strangers and pilgrims.. :) too bad the uni students cant go :( but anyways pray for good weather, good fellowship and encouragement!

may be flying kites tooooo! AHHHHH :):):)

^_^ cannot wait.

byebye apple-pie!

hello :)

beautiful skies i took when i was in school.

work work work! byebye apple-pie!

hello!

nice tree i caught when i was walking to the bus stop.

study study study! i’m going to start working hard for the EYE. so many things i want to do, but they can wait for a month.. i’m kind of excited for the EYE cos this time i know i’ll be prepared, and i know i’m studying for God.. :) no more tomfoolery in class, no more getting distracted by other things!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i feel like writing again. my hands are itching but my brain doesnt have any ideas, or doesnt know how to put those ideas into work. rusty brain haha. i feel kind of artistic heh.

this week has been somewhat less busy for me, like got less things to do and stuff. and i felt happier.. sort of. thank God. :) well, been a v bad Christian testimony in school again.. sometimes i’m okay, other times i just let it go. :( must continue to work harder at it.

sometimes i’m a little embarrassed about doing “Christian things”, cos no one else does it, and it’s almost as if they’re labeled abnormal or sth. and it’s worse cos after i do those things, and then i do sth not so nice, it’s like i’m making fun of Christ name, like being hypocritical..

but anyways, Christians should be in the world, but not of the world.. so i must continue to work harder!

finding it more and more difficult to talk to my classmates cos i dont do things they do, like listen to pop music, go crazy about Korean or Japanese boybands, etc. hmm! it’s okay, i have my own things to do anyway ^^

tried to find a pic to put here cos it’s so boring without them but i cant find any. so byebye apple-pie :P

hello!

it’s been almost 4 months since i started this blog, with a grand total of 93 posts (not counting this one).. it’s interesting to look back and think on just these 4 months, so many things which have happened and how fast time goes. even though this is such a small blog, thank God for seeing me through just this year (and every other year of my life).. :)

so many things have happened, so many things i’ve learnt.. thank God :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

thank you to all who have shown concern for me and encouraged me.. whether it was what i posted on fb or here, thank you. i’ve been thinking a lot about it through the day and i really realised that i cant do anything about what’s happening even though i worry a lot.. so all i can do and will do will be to pray more and more each day.

thank God for His mercies toward me.. :)

anyways i was kept awake for most of last night thinking.. somehow my head went haywire and wouldnt let me rest. horrible, but somehow i managed to keep awake in school! i didnt even doze off during geography (heh)! :)

:) byebye apple-pie!

hello.

(i dont really know why i put this pic in. adds colour to my blog haha.)

i’ve been a bit stressed lately (amazingly), not really because of school work, but because i’ve been thinking a lot (again).. been getting the feeling that a lot of people expect more of me, which is sth i really cant take.. but i dont know whether it’s me putting pressure on myself cos i know there’s so much more room for improvement.

sometimes i really wander what it’s like to be a normal 15 year old like anyone else. i just think people dont expect them to behave better, to be more matured, to be more disciplined cos they’re none the wiser.

but then i remembered that if i’m doing anything, it’s for God’s glory. and i shouldn’t think of what people have to think of me, it’s God that i account to, and it’s God standard i’m reaching for, not what people expect of me.

nonetheless, i hope people aren’t having their high hopes pinned on me. i’m just a 15 year old, so many things i dont know, so many things i’ve yet to see. and it’s difficult cos everyone else gets to “enjoy” and i’m trying my best to behave (but of course i dont). kind of discouraging sometimes.

oh well, i must let Him have his way with me!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i just realised what was missing in my life — a planner! hahaha i realise i’m v disorganised and i dont know what i’m going to do for the day or what. no wonder i’ve been such a bad student. anyways i really have to spend less time on the com from now on so i can finish up all my work etc. starting to feel nervous (not all of that anxiety is for myself) and stress is coming. finally (haha).

everyone’s been so busy and caught up with work, makes me feel so helpless that i cant help anyone else. but we all know God can help us :) i’ve been realising the importance of doing qt regularly and keeping communion with God.. really to find strength in Him and in His Word.

please jy everyone and dont pass out half way. my heart will break for you all. :(

anyways, the more important thing is..

(i really like this design. short and sweet and special!)

are our lives worth the living? what are we doing for our souls, the only thing eternal that can never be demolished? hmm take time to think about it, and if you want to know more, do drop a reply or sth. gospel rally, 7pm next saturday (will bring you there from je!). guaranteed that you will be blessed!

okay i need to go and do my homework already.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m dead tired, cant believe within 3 days i’ve done so many things! thank God for strength and His love. it really doesnt feel like one week has past.. more like a month! so many things i want to do but i just dont have enough brain to do them anymore. hahaha.

i want to study church history!

okay byebye apple-pie!

hello,

Abide with me — fast falls the eventide,

The darkness deepens — Lord with me abide;

When other helpers fail and comforts flee,

Help of the helpless, O abide with me!

-

Swift to its close ebbs out life’s little day,

Earth’s joys grow dim, it’s glories pass away;

Change and decay in all around I see –

O Thou who changest not, abide with me.

-

I need Thy presence every passing hour –

What but Thy grace can foil the tempter’s power?

Who like Thyself my guide and stay can be?

Through cloud and sunshine, O abide with me!

-

Hold Thou Thy word before my closing eyes,

Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies;

Heaven’s morning breaks and earth’s vain shadows flee –

In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me!

*

hope that encouraged you as much as it encouraged me. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

“My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.” (Psalm 73:26)

i wont attempt to describe the peace in my heart. :)

*

i miss carrying this little lovely baby!

ok i have a super load of other things to do now. byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i realised how much i’ve missed writing after writing an article for the school newsletter! hmm i wish i had time to embark on a small project or sth, improve my writing skills.. oh well! i was thinking i could write sth based in church history, like a story of how the people had so much faith even though they were ultimately matyred for the gospel. so interesting! :)

hello.

just travelled back from SGBF just now with some company (it’s not good to walk/take bus with me cos i’m really bad company), and i realised after we parted how bad i’ve been. :( anyways i’ve been kind of disoriented recently, no time to step back and rest more. need to learn to be more disciplined and well-behaved.

i realised how much i’m afraid to lose people around me, yet i never treat them as well as i think i can. makes me feel so upset with myself. but at the same time, i think it’s all so complicated and confusing cos everyone else has a thousand and one thoughts and it’s difficult to express myself in the correct way such that it doesnt lead to misunderstanding. so i just end up being a nuisance.

so many people to treasure but only one heart to love. a sinful and selfish heart.

never enough faith to believe, never enough love to trust.

*

v sleepy and still have chem to study!

byebye apple-pie!

PS to auntie, sorry for shooting the rubber band at you. i know my shots all v power. :) heehee

hello!

an ambassador of Christ! i am an ambassador of Christ! and my sole message, motivation and work should be Christ! what a reminder i had today.

okay v tired, tomorrow eband working at a new place (:D), but i hope i dont get lost getting there (hmm). marked the quizes just now. dont know whether to laugh or cry.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m baking cookies now. horrible failure :( hahaha and now all of them have a bit of baking paper stuck to the bottom LOL. :) but somehow still edible. so while i munch on one of these rock hard cookies, let me tell you what happened!

i started out all wrong and mixed everything together (really everything together) and somehow a mixture was formed. i had intially planned to make peanut butter cookies, but when the mixture was formed, i realised i forgot to add in peanut butter -_- so i just went to make them anyway.

then i did a nicer and proper one, but the mixture was like, very hot (cos you’re supposed to melt the butter and sugar and peanut butter), so i anyhow made them into cookie shapes. but i guess they should be more edible than the first batch.

anyways i wanted to do them for yf refreshments but looks like no one will be eating the first batch (unless you really want to?), so i hope the second batch will be okay. hobo joan who never ever paid attention in class for F&N but pushed all the work to her partner.

will try to make some more tomorrow (ugh). haha. oh, and the conclusion of the whole matter: just buy the ready-made mixtures. so much less work. i wish i had those baking fingers of simone. heh.

haha looks edible, it IS edible, just more difficult. dont expect any elderly or young ones to be eating them.

anyways the second batch was chao-ta -_- i need more hands-on. otherwise will never get married hahaha. just kidding. every thing is in God’s hands. :)

*

so tired! and i have tons to study. but thank God for strength. somehow every day doesnt seem to be so bad when it all comes to a close. 24 hours, how many things can be done in it? how many things can actually happen? somehow everything just works out.

thank God. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i never seem to be getting well. cos i never seem to be taking my medicine regularly. heh.

v tired but many more things to do.. thank God for strength! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

life in school seems better somehow, surprisingly. thank God for good days and bad. i dont really know how to describe what i’m feeling now, like a mix of everything. hmm.

“What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.” (Psalm 56:3)

it’s interesting how the future can look so bright and bleak at the same time. but anyways, it’s not up to me to decide where i walk, but to just walk aright, knowing that i dont create my own path. it’s so difficult to trust and obey sometimes. so egocentric and power-minding (haha). oh well.

sometimes i wish i could hold on to someone’s hand and walk, because i dont have enough faith to hold on to God’s hand and just walk through the storms. believe to see or see to believe? so perilous yet so comforting that although you’ve never seen God, you know He can never fail because He works in your life. so daunting yet so unwavering.

“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” (Psalm 23:4)

byebye apple-pie!

(photo gotten from: http://conatgion.deviantart.com/art/Storms-72269863)

hello!

aiyo today only got to play two rounds of netball for fear that i would make myself sicker (see! i took good care of myself :D). and the worst thing of all, i didnt bring my camera! oh man. :( but at least got ahma’s cool camera! hahaha :)

and i didnt see auntie at netball :( and 107 also. 你们两个太乖了，还留在家里做功课、读书！

happened to look out of the window after studying, and i saw this!

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello!

YAY :) i think you know why already!

yay :):):)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m tired of thinking. i’m just going to give it all up.

byebye apple-pie.

hello!

this is a bottle tree! and we’re going to see sth like that tomorrow :)

i havent started planning my games at all, but i did get a good rest after a tiring stint this morning.. thank God for strength, but i feel as if i really dont know where i’m going, with a lot of mixed emotions and stuff. will show you why when i get my camera back from my sis!

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i think this photo has appeared in my blog so many times, but it always reminds me of the peaceful tranquility spent at the beach back in the church camp. i miss that place so much, and i do miss the time there. sometimes you dont know what you can lose until you lose it all, and you want to take it back, but you just cant.

looking through my blog brings back memories i dont know whether i would want to remember.. but of course, God makes no mistakes in what He has chosen to let me go through, and i suppose it’s all part of the learning that makes us all better soldiers for Christ! well, soft training means soft soldiers, so may God give us the strength to go ahead and be strong in Him!

thinking about all these things just makes me feel like working so hard that i will forget them. hmm, haha.. oh well, what’s past is past, so i cant change anything.

“And it shall come to pass, that as ye were a curse among the heathen, O house of Judah, and house of Israel; so will I save you, and ye shall be a blessing: fear not, but let your hands be strong.” (Zechariah 8:13)

God’s promise, my hope.

byebye apple-pie!

(photo of the cool bottle tree gotten from: http://hongti-lim.blogspot.com/)

hello.

methinks i should have gotten a week of mc so i would have properly recovered and can go for the church outing well and strong, cos now my sore throat is back! >:( but my runny nose is getting a lot better, hmm. anyways tomorrow will be a long and hot day (i half hope it rains, ok not really cos we + the student councillors have put a lot of effort into the work) so.. i’m going to run off after the celebrations on account that i’m really sick. :o

anyways, on a sadder and more solemn note,

“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” (Matthew 5:16)

i havent been a good Christian testimony in school, which is a really sad thing to say esp because i have wanted to, but because of my pride and my wanting to show off my so-called intelligence, i’ve thrown everyth i’ve learnt to the wind..

“If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man’s religion is vain.” (James 1:26)

“For in many things we offend all. If any man offend not in word, the same is a perfect man, and able to bridle the whole body.” (3:2)

i wish i could go around with masking tape on my mouth. oh well, better learn and remember!

okay got to rest already! byebye apple-pie!

P.S. to ahma and auntie, i guai-ly followed your remedy of sore throats (to drink coke + salt) but i stupidly put the salt in before drinking any of the coke, and then it overflowed a lot. heh. 真聪明！:)

hello!

walked in a contingent today ._. so boring and tiring.

anyways methinks i’m going to get myself a watch cos i’m always so unconscious of time and i’m always late for school. hmm. CXLF has H1N1 :( but nvm cos it’s appears to be nth much, and she’s recovering well, only she wont be able to join us for the church outing :( she’s the first person i know personally who has H1N1. both cool and sad..

imagine that glorious day we will all be in heaven. ah :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

within 3 months i’ve fallen sick twice :( should have rested at home today even tho i didn’t have an mc, would have helped me to get better faster. anyways was going around very cranky and distracted in school today, couldn’t concentrate on anything. :(:(:( will skip school tomorrow if i still dont feel better so i dont waste time disturbing other people in school!

yay i finally bothered to upload photos on my computer and charge my camera! :) so i have some photos to show you!

hee hee :)

hello kitty?! doesnt belong to me :P

haha dont know if you all can see whose hello kitty that was :)

nice sunset i happened to catch the other day! :)

我好累啊! hmm, i need to have tough training for the future! cannot allow myself to get sick and laze around, especially not when i grow older. then dont need to eat already :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’ve just spent 3.5 hours going to, staying at and coming home from polyclinic. but still thankful that even though it was a long wait, at least every thing is free (because my mom’s a civil servant) and service was good.. :) anyways a lot of people are getting sick. :( please get well soon! :) then we can all go for the bottle tree park outing together.. heh :)

going to tighten my braces later! :o so tiring.. but anyways thank God for strength!

“See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.” (Ephesians 5:15-16)

circumspectly just means prudently. was reminded of this verse as i was listening to audio Bible which i downloaded from Sermon Audio, and was reminded of what someone had said to me quite a long time ago.. hmm!

anyways i had a really weird dream this morning. hmm. (random!)

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello.

i want to wake up really early one of these days and walk to school. but i’m a bit scared to walk alone but at the same time i want some time alone to think. hmm!

anyways has anyone been thinking of me the whole day? i’ve been sneezing more than usual~ :P missed a certain ahma in church too :( and i also miss playing netball/frisbee/etc with people, but that will be for the bottle tree park outing! :):):)

hmm. thoughts thoughts and more thoughts. :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

finally a proper update :) but no photos! :(

anyways :) the weekends are here, and next weekend, we’re off to Bottle Tree Park, some ulu ulu place? haha no la, actually i have no idea where it is either, but i’m one of them planning games so it should be quite fun (for me) :P then the monday following that is a holiday! :D i hope someone will plan something so we can all have fun together? :D

it’s already 1 August! isn’t it amazing how fast the year passes by? soon it will be the year end holidays, and then YF camp, and then Christmas! and a new baby will be born (:D), and so many many many things will be happening. truly, it is only through God’s grace we are able to pass our days will peace and serenity.. :)

“For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night.” (Psalm 90:4)

with every passing day, we’re drawing closer to the return of our Lord! :) can you imagine that beautiful beautiful day where we will all be transported to heaven in the twinkling of an eye. i just cant imagine my heart leaping out, like free from all the sin of this earth, and into a wonderful heaven where we will be sinless. :):):)

heaven makes me so excited!

“Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.” (1 Corinthians 15:51-52)

i cant wait for that day! :)

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okay i know my blog looks super weird now, will do sth to it asap :P

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello! (tweet!)

feeling much better from yesterday. somehow.. :)

will edit later if i can! byebye apple-pie!

hello!

为什么兄弟姐妹之间的感情会变成这样？

why do things happen when you really dont want them to happen? :( can only worry, can only think. 为什么呢？为什么人们就是那么自私？when you look at people, you’ll never get anywhere. the people whom you respect and look up to — they are human after all, aren’t they?

“the optimist who looks to God in faith and smiles at every storm overcomes every storm.”

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keep on believing.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

today was a not-so-busy-but-still-kind-of-busy day. actually my days are never really busy because i just dont feel busy. tired but not rushed. thank God! must learn how to treasure my school life, haha. :)

haven’t had time to sit down and just play the piano (not really) for a long while.. and there are no other extra meetings tomorrow! :):):) can sit in the yf room and play the piano.. blessed! :)

“我一生一世必有恩惠慈爱随着我；我且要住在耶和华的殿中，直到永远。” 诗篇23：6

“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.” (Psalm 23:6)

after being sent home from night class yesterday, i was just thinking, how blessed it would be to be able to just stay in God’s house for ever. it’s always such a joy to be in church.. :) can’t wait for next thursday! :D

:) byebye apple-pie!

HELLO!

FEBC night classes were wonderful. thank God :) and i will try my best to complete the assignment, which is to read 5 chapters of Isaiah every week beforehand, even though i’m not taking credit. what a blessing it is to be able to go for night classes in FEBC every Thursday. :):):)

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM. :)

i felt so safe being a pillion rider. thank God for safety. i was almost going to scream in excitement when the bike started off. heh but i got used to it after a while and gradually just felt a lot more relaxed. :) pro right. she said i’m a veteran now. hahaha. :) thank God for that lovely lady who sent me home.. don’t know what i can do to thank her enough, for teaching me how to sing, for sending me home.. thank God for her! :)

and also, i received something sweet *tweettweet* from a lady who has lovingly made it! :)

it comes in a series. next one comes next year. until i’m really old. ;)

also other lovely gifts, but i’ll show it to you when i finally get to taking photos of them (it didn’t occur to me to take photos of them while i took a photo of the above). hmm -_- old already la heh.

okay byebye apple-pie!

HELLO!

hmm. :)

GUESS WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN TOMORROW? :) yay! i’m so excited! :D okay i’m not that excited, because i’m quite tired, but i believe i will be tomorrow and i’ll wake up at 5 in the morning and jump on my bed and shout:

“I’m going for FEBC night class on Isaiah tonight!” :)

no, i’m not really going to do that heh. see my usage of polysyndethon? (i dont know if i used the word correctly.) :D

anyways i went to the library today to study, but i realised that both my pens were running out of ink, and i that had no more lead in my pencil and that i had lent my other pencil to a friend. hmm :( so after studying for 2 hours, i had no choice to come home. oh, and i forgot to bring money to school today (like more money), but thank God i had money left over from yesterday which miraculously survived me through the day (but i’m not really a spendthrift so it’s not really that miraculous).

okay i just told you about my whole day. hmm :) thank God for every day in my life!

and someone just got a new flat! wowowowow :):):) so cooooool! cant wait for january 2011! :)

“耶和华，我的力量啊，我爱你！耶和华是我的岩石，我的山寨，我的救主，我的 神，我的磐石，我所投靠的。你是我的盾牌，是拯救我的角，是我的高台。” (诗篇 18:1-2)

“I will love thee, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust, my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.” (Psalm 18:1-2)

is not His providence wonderful? :)

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i do wish i had studied my Chinese better when i was younger. i spent 15 minutes typing out that Chinese verse because i couldn’t remember certain words and how to type them in han yu pin yin. hmm :( but better late than never.. thank God :)

byebye apple-pieeeeee.

(photo from 我心爱的ahma: http://flowerinthewilderness.blogspot.com/)

hello!

“你是我藏身之处；你必保佑我脱离苦难，以得救的乐歌四面环绕我。” 诗篇32:7

“Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah.” (Psalm 32:7)

i was reading this verse in Chinese, and i thought it sounded so beautiful. i’ve been quite tired recently (though not as tired as ahma and auntie!), but thank God for sustaining me through the first two days after school. my bro got sick, and no my sister’s sick with flu. i hope i dont fall sick (at least not before the febc night class on thursday!).

你是我藏身之处

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two more days :) thanks ah, auntie! :D

byebye apple-pie!

你好!

完美家庭还存在着吗? 看到别人的家,有些时候,我也很想进入他们的家庭.

did you understand all that? i had trouble thinking about how to express it in Mandarin too, haha. but anyway, i was just saying, “Do perfect families still exist today? Sometimes when I look at the homes of other people, I feel like joining their family, too.”

but of course, God put my here for a purpose. i’m not saying that my home is bad or anything, but the grass always looks greener on the other side.

“In all things give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” (1 Thessalonians 5:18)

Families all around us are crumbling everyday, yielding to the enemy and throwing life away,

Bind our hearts together, guide us with Your truth; when the struggle seems too great, Lord, keep our eyes on You.

Lord, bless our home, protect our home; let it be a refuge in this world of sin, Lord, reign within, keep us strong and true.

And when we need You most, Lord, draw us close, committed to each other — Lord, bless our home, we give our home to You.

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FEBC NIGHT CLASS (ISAIAH) ON THURSDAY! :):):) BUT i need someone to walk me there. or give me a map. i hope i dont fall asleep on the mrt and then just sleep the whole way. :(:(:( can someone take mrt with me and make sure i wake up. i’m super afraid i’ll sleep and then miss the stop.

“But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31)

sometimes i really do wish i have wings. then i can just fly to FEBC (but i haven’t figured out how to get there.. ah -_-). nvm. i just hope i dont get lost.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i have a friend who shared with me that she works hard the whole day and crams up her whole schedule so she will be really tired and the moment she pops onto bed, she’ll sleep. maybe i should try doing that. hmm.

anyway. i think my brain is becoming fried with different thoughts. cool right. should add some pepper and salt.

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Take my lips and let me sing, always only for my King.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

http://twitter.com/joanierch

do visit my twitter account. but even if you don’t i won’t be very sad. it’s just a place for me to write down my sudden bursts of thoughts and stuff, for me to let it all out. it would be kind of weird to start each post with ‘hello’ and end with ‘byebye apple-pie’ if i just want to say something short here. so i took on twitter instead!

anyway i have a very favourite video, which only FB users can see, http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1010515632631 do go see it if you can, it was taken quite long ago, i think around february or march. :):):)

The machinery of prayer is not always visible, but it is most efficient. — Spurgeon.

if there’s anything i’ve learnt in my first 5479 days of my life, it is that prayer is so important. when you’re happy, you thank God, when you’re sad, you ask God for strength, when you’ve sinned, you ask God for forgiveness, when others need help, you pray for them.. :)

what a weird day. hmm.

byebye apple-pie.

hello!

don’t you think sunsets are very unique? there are never two identical ones. i love watching sunsets, but i’ve never been able to catch a nice one, like sitting at the beach and just watching the sun set. on saturdays, i’m usually in 03-08 watching the sun fall, too, while i sing hymns and think about them.. :)

here’s one from my window! the colours just can’t be replicated with photoshots.. what you see isn’t what you get, i guess!

i like how the sun looks like it’s being whisked away. i needed a break while i was working so i just took some shots.

“The glory of the LORD shall endure for ever: the LORD shall rejoice in his works.” (Ps 104:31)

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children are so adorable, but it’s such a responsibility to bring them to Christ, and teach them that they may grow in the grace and in the knowledge of the Lord Jesus. but for now, i’ll just enjoy playing with and carrying little babies.. ^_^ (one more coming in october! :D)

okay byebye apple-pie!

hello!

after seeing 107’s pictures on facebook, i really want to go out somewhere and have an outing and have fun! :( why am i a 15-year-old stuck in school all the time..?

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:” (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

oh well, can only wait until i’m much older and have longer holidays. and more people to accompany and go out with me.. another few more years (which seem like decades to me!), but i can only wait..

okay need to work! byebye apple-pie!

hello!

“There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that yet may be able to bear it.” (1 Corinthians 10:13)

-sigh!-

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The peace of God which passeth all understanding,

Keep your hearts and minds, keep your hearts and minds

In the knowledge and love of God, and of His Son Jesus Christ our Lord.

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anyway, i’ve just realised that there are some people, by just looking at them, you find immense comfort in your heart. hmm! oh, and please don’t be concerned if you hear me sigh (especially when i sigh a lot), because i just need to let off some steam that i don’t know how to say in words.. :)

23 july FEBC night class on Isaiah! :) cannot wait! :D

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

say cheese! :)

i wonder if little boyboy in Auntie Audrey’s womb could do that. so adorable! :) i found this as i was trying to look for articles to write my extremely dued Chinese newspaper reports. coming to think of it, i actually enjoy writing Chinese! but i still need to brush up on reading la, but i find that i’ve improved quite a bit. thank God! :)

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LORD, who shall abide in thy tabernacle? who shall dwell in thy holy hill?

He that walketh uprightly, and worketh righteousness, and speaketh the truth in his heart.

He that backbiteth not with his tongue, nor doeth evil to his neighbour, nor taketh up a reproach against his neighbour.

In whose eyes a vile person is contemned; but he honoureth them that fear the LORD. He that sweareth to his own hurt, and changeth not.

He that putteth not out his money to usury, nor taketh reward against the innocent. He that doeth these things shall never be moved.

Psalm 15

it’s quite overwhelming, don’t you think. the only time any of us would ever be able to do all these things 100% perfectly would be when we see each other in heaven.

speaking of heaven, it makes me very excited! i don’t think i’ll ever be able to take in the full grandeur of heaven even when i’m up there.. :):):) just thinking about it makes my heart echo the hymnist’s words, “Heaven came down and glory filled my soul, when at the Cross, my Saviour made me whole; My sins were washed away, and my night was turned to day, Heaven came down and glory filled my soul.”

the wonder of salvation, the glory of heaven.. :)

okay la, i need to do my homework! byebye apple-pie! :)

(photo gotten from: http://www.zaobao.com/photoweb/pages1/baby090710.shtml)

hello.

i realised the my blog appears differently on Google Chrome (which i use) and Internet Explorer. so if you happen to see some enlarged wordings, i was actually trying to make it smaller and less noticable. hmm -_-

anyways i got back my water bottle from church, delivered to me by my auntie :)

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“But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou hast learned them; And that from a child thou hast known the holy scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.” (2 Timothy 3:14-15)

it’s a frightening thing to depart from the faith, and wander on this earth, away from God and His love.

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i’ve been so tired recently..

By the gentle waters, you will safely lead me
In green pastures feed me, knowing what is best.
Though I often stray, wander far away,
I can hear You say, ” Come to Me and rest.”
Though the path be rough and rugged,
Though the trail be dark and steep,
Still the gentle Shepherd watches o’er His sheep.

There’s no need to fear when the Shepherd’s near.
When Your voice I hear, I find comfort sure.
Free from all alarm, sheltered from all harm,
Safely in Your arms, I can rest secure.
With the flock abiding, all my needs supplying,
Comforting and guiding, leading all the way, all the way.

Jesus, loving Shepherd, You’ll forsake me never.
In your flock forever, I am not alone.
Though the darkness hide me, You are close beside me.
Gentle Shepherd, guide me ’til I’m safely home.

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byebye apple-pie. :)

hello.

Only to be what He wants me to be, every moment of every day;

Yielded completely to Jesus alone, every step of this pilgrim way:

Just to be clay in the Potter’s hands, ready to do what His Word commands;

Only to be what He wants me to be, every moment of every day.

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i prayed, decided not to go for the FEBC night class on monday after all.. :)

gotta do homework! byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’ve never felt such a strong sense of dread for school ever, till today. and i know it’s wrong because it is a place God put me in to be a good Christian testimony. -sigh!- :(

dinner at the Angs’ was fantastically delicious, and playing on the wii console was great fun too! :)

i was also thinking about whether i want to go for the night class on monday which is on the book of Daniel. i’m really quite interested in the book of Daniel and i know that there are people who can send me home (:D) but i don’t know if i can manage my time, or if i’ll tire myself out. pray pray pray!

Oh, how praying rests the weary! Prayer will change the night to day;

So when life seems dark and dreary, don’t forget to pray.

one thing i’ve learnt from my papa. just keep praying.

byebye apple-pie!

[P.S. just fyi, papa is not really my father. :) ]

hello.

“A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.” (Proverb 17:17)

thank God for good friends who are always there to listen to you when you need a listening ear. i just i wish i could be a friend to them, too, but sometimes i’m just not good enough.

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anyways, the week in school is going to be another hectic one. and i’m going to get my braces for my bottom row of teeth today (after extracting one last monday). i completely forgot about it, so i don’t know if i can eat the delicious food tonight cooked by a special cook. aww.

i wonder what tempura is. i just hope it’s not going to be too hard. looking forward to homecooked dinner tonight! :):):) and fellowship around the table with friends i enjoy being with! thank God! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’ve decided i’m going for SGBF for the next quarter. i suddenly felt like going after choir today, even though i was almost all the way out of church. we are now studying on The Five Hundred Years of John Calvin.

i was reading through the past SGBF study notes on the Apocalypse, and what was included in the notes was:

“Pliny (the governor of Asia Minor) wrote to the emperor Trajan because he was puzzled by the Christians who were brought before him for trial. This was the kind of things he found himself up against: A certain unknown Christian was brought before him, and Pliny, finding little fault in him, proceeded to threaten him. “I will banish thee (you),” he said. “Thou canst not (You cannot),” was the reply, “for all the world is my Father’s house.”

“Then I will slay thee (you),” said Pliny. “Thou canst not (You cannot),” answered the Christian, “for my life is with Christ in God.”

“I will take away thy (your) possessions,” continued Pliny. “Thou canst not (You cannot), for my treasure is in heaven.”

“I will drive thee (you) away from man and thou (you) shalt have no friend left,” was the final threat. And the calm reply once more was, “Thou canst not, for I have an unseen Friend from whom thou (you) art (are) not able to separate me.”

can you imagine such faith? in the face of persecution, they simply surrendered all their lives to God and knew for a certain that God would glorify His name. their eyes were just so focused on God and His Word that they could forget about their earthly lives and mortal bodies. isn’t He amazing?

may God give me such faith, that my eyes are only heaven-ward, regardless of circumstances or persecution.. :)

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tomorrow is a holiday, and i’m going to have quite a special dinner? :) but before that, i’ll have to complete all the work that i need to do.. oh well!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i always do things i know i’ll say sorry about later.. and i keep doing them it seems like my sorrys don’t matter. i’ve been a really bad friend. sorry papa! (i don’t know if you’ll read this though!) :(

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i’m going to use less time on the computer. i think i’m quite wasting my time sometimes since i always am able to find better things to do (like reading my Bible, or studying church history or other things).

ohhhhh! and i will probably be taking a lift home on someone’s bike (just after i was saying that i would definitely want to ride on someone else’s bike today) after FEBC nightclasses. :) thank God for His provision! and thank God my parents allowed me to, too. :)

okay. i shall find some way to get over my guiltiness.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just woke up 40min ago after 4 hours of sleep. it’s 10:40pm now. yes, i slept at 6pm and woke up at 10pm, and now i won’t be able to sleep unless i take cough mixture (which there are valid reasons to do so) to get myself drowsy and sleep. but i’m afraid if i take cough mixture, i won’t be able to wake up in the morning. ._.

oh well. at least it’s only 5 hours in school tomorrow before the WEEKEND. :):):)

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“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: … He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.” (Ecclesiastes 3:1, 11)

i believe God rewards patience with His beautiful working out of all things. but sometimes it’s so difficult to be patient and just wait upon the Lord for His will and His guidance. well, despite that, i want to put my life into God’s almighty hands, knowing that His sovereignty will rule over all things, and i will be safe in the arms of my loving Heavenly Father.

“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” (Psalm 37:4)

“If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.” (John 15:7)

i have been meditating upon Psalm 37:4-5 in school these two days, and writing down my thoughts. as i read Psalm 37:4, another verse which dawned upon me was John 15:7, and essentially, both are talking about the same thing: if you read God’s Word and keep it, God will be faithful to grant the desires of your heart, because the desires of your heart will glorify and please God.

“Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.” (Psalm 43:5)

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i just saw esther’s entry on her first day of the church camp :) it’s so good to be able to look back upon the goodness of God during the camp. despite the many things that happened, i still thank God for it, with all the lessons learnt.. -sigh of contentment!-

okay got to do amaths and emaths homework!

but before i go, i would like to show you a picture that i quite like. i took it during the church camp while the others were playing captain’s ball and i was trying to catch my breath.

crouch to jump. :)

actually there’s another one that i like best, but i’m afraid the people won’t want their faces here. ;)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

“Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation. When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.” (Psalm 27:9-10)

man may fail, but God never has, and will never fail. in Him there is much comfort to be found. and He is our source of encouragement and strength despite the many circumstances and difficulties.

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anyways i was thinking that there should be an outing or sth for the youths on youth day because it’s a HOLIDAY! :) but i don’t know what to do and i don’t want to waste the time. was thinking we can play badminton or just exercise. i hope we can do something together.. :)

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“The LORD preserveth the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me. Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee.” (Psalm 116:6-7)

“Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.” (Psalm 42:5)

another two days in school.. just another two days (and no CCA :D). jiayou jiayou!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

“For all flesh is as grass, and all the glory of man as the flower of grass. The grass withereth, and the flower thereof falleth away: But the word of the Lord endureth for ever. And this is the word which by the gospel is preached unto you.” (1 Peter 1:24-25)

i would think that when a person rejects the doctrine of Verbal Plinary Preservation, it’s akin to rejecting the all-powerful God. when we say that there are mistakes in the Bible, or that only essential parts of the Bible are preserved, it’s really saying that God has no power to protect His Word.

but we know otherwise, that the original hebrew, aramic and greek scriptures are still kept pure throughout the ages. and we also believe that the KJV of the Bible is the best translation of the Bible, preserving the meanings of the original scriptures. i think it’s important to believe that God worked through the translators, giving them divine wisdom to translate the texts such that what we have is truly the Word of God.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1)

i guess it takes faith to believe that God is sovereign and has kept His Word pure, free of human error and all discrepancy throughout the ages. may God give us that faith. :)

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here’s me and little cutie. ;) i just cut my hair today though.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m missing the church people already! two days in school without seeing any of them is really a different feeling, especially since i’ve always been around them. it’s going to take some getting used to!

anyway, i’ve been greatly encouraged by some of the CTYF people’s blogs, like benjamin, jiahui, norman, etc. it’s so good to have like-minded brethren who blog about their walk with God to encourage and bless others.. :) which reminds me about doing the same also la.

“Fear thou not: for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” (Isaiah 41:10)

starting from the 23 July, i’ll be attending nightclasses at FEBC for the book of Isaiah. better start reading Isaiah to prepare myself! i hope i won’t be too tired out travelling and studying. but it’s so blessed to be able to study the Word of God! :):):) cannot wait! plus there’re so many people offering to send me home! :) thank God for His blessings!

Make me a stranger on earth, dear Savior, make me a stranger more like Thee;

Help me keep my focus on heavenly treasures, And not on earthly things may it be.

Lord, lead me onward as a pilgrim bound for heaven, never to roam.

Make me a stranger on earth, dear Savior, till I see my heavenly home.

this my prayer shall be, even as i sing this hymn, that the Lord will Make Me A Stranger. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

school’s starting. and this is the instruction i have received,

“Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;)” (Hebrews 10:23)

but, i’ll be meeting people.

“He that walketh with wise men shall be wise: but a companion of fools shall be destroyed.” (Proverbs 13:20)

and i’ll be lazy and sinful..

“The desire of the slothful killeth him; for his hands refuse to labour.” (Proverbs 21:25)

“His bones are full of the sin of his youth, which shall lie down with him in the dust.” (Job 20:11)

and i may forget His Word..

“Now consider this, ye that forget God, lest I tear you in pieces, and there be none to deliver.” (Psalm 50:22)

but, we all learn to trust God.

“O LORD my God, in thee do I put my trust: save me from all them that persecute me, and deliver me: Lest he tear my soul like a lion, rending it in pieces, while there is none to deliver.” (Psalm 7:1-2)

why do we trust God? because He cannot fail, and He is faithful.

“It is of the LORD’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3:22-23)

“And, Thou, Lord, in the beginning hast laid the foundation of the earth; and the heavens are the works of thine hands: They shall perish; but thou remainest; and they all shall wax old as doth a garment; And as a vesture shalt thou fold them up, and they shall be changed: but thou art the same, and thy years shall not fail.” (Hebrews 1:10-12)

oh well. i shall wait in eagerness for wednesday nights and weekends. and soon, i’ll be earnestly waiting for thursday nights too as i attend night class at FEBC! :):):)

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i love to sing. thank you for helping me. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

thank God that He answers prayer! He really really really answers prayer. :)

They reel to and fro, and stagger like a drunken man, and are at their wits’ end. Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he bringeth them out of their distresses. He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still. (Psalm 107:27-29)

after a talk with a friend today, i realised so many many many things. i didn’t realise that people actually are more careful with me than they make out to be. and i realise that they care more for me and pray for me more than they make out to be. thank God for friends. :)

well! i’m clear about what i feel, and my heart is aright with God. let me not fear what man will think or what they will say, but let me honour and be aright with God in all aspects of my life. :)

byebye apple-pie!