hello!

i have been spurred to pray more. pray a lot a lot a lot more. for all the things that have past — to remember God’s loving hand, for all the things present — to pray for God’s blessing, for all the things to come — to pray for God’s will to be revealed.

i’m really happy. it won’t last.. that knowledge comes from experience. but i’m still thankful for the sweet reprieve i have received of the Lord :)

by the grace of God alone i shall see the end of this.. and hopefully the end of this will be the beginning of a new phase in my life — if that be the will of God :)

Lord, teach me Thy way!

Psalms 86:11, “Teach me thy way, O LORD; I will walk in thy truth: unite my heart to fear thy name.”

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anyways! stuff have been happening. i’m thankful for God’s guiding grace..

raaaaaaaaarh. i’m a happy girl :) and there’s netball tmr too! :D

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

the school term is ended! 10 weeks have past just like that.. and it has been a very very very eventful 10 weeks!

thank God for companionship and friendship, thank God for grace :)

thank God for quarrels, thank God for encouragement.. thank God for times of pain, thank God for happiness.

thank God! i’ve been given more than i could ever ask for!

:)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

things have been quite a whirlwind recently.. i cant believe i’ve been sad so much and been happy so much all within the same week. so many highs and lows, i’m not so sure whether i’d be able to take it all. thank God for peace, perfect peace in Jesus Christ :)

anyway. auntie’s not in singapore!

and. i’m still studying for my o levels now.

and. i’m okay i guess.

just kind of tired. heh.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

busy as busy can get! (to think i’m still updating this rotten place.)

thank God for friends, family and everybody that has been keeping me awake in school. (i’m a bit high now.)

but seriously, thank God for friends — people whom the Lord has lovingly put in my life to encourage me! Cannot thank God enough for them! :)

auntie, stay safe on your triiiiiip :) and ahma, get well soon! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just realised i havent updated this blog for 10 days! haha been somewhat busy.. never got the chance to sit down and use the computer for quite a while. thank God for a pretty uneventful week.. and thank God for friends!

thank God for lessons learnt, especially in the prep for my bio spa. it was a realisation that it was more a spiritual battle than anything else. thank God!

okay i dont have anyth much to update about except it will be the start of my long marathon next week! preparing for all my grad exams and my o levels! pray that the Lord will be with me! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

i’m always reminded about death, and how painful it is to lose someone, when i visit uncle KL’s fb. i recently wrote a compo on the topic ‘flight’, and i based it on his recount of auntie V’s life during the vigil service, and i just thought to send it to him, perhaps if it would encourage him in any way.

“You know the feeling where after school, you long to go back home and recharge. But what if you had no home in that sense? Then how would you recharge?”

home, a place not made up of a mere building.. but home.

She never did. The flat line – I could only stare at it blankly, the pain numbing my whole heart. Mother, the woman I had always loved, was gone. Death had mercilessly ripped a limb off me, leaving me to defend myself against the tidal waves of grief and loss. It was darkness, entire darkness, as I fought to find light and comfort in the abyss of my sorrows. Mother, she was gone.

in that sense, i’m pretty scared to get close to anyone too. when death strikes, everything’s gone. what’s left would only be memories.. the rest all gone.

okay i guess i’m the only 16-year-old thinking about death over the lunar new year. -_-

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i finished all my school work yesterday! i sat down from 4 all the way to 12 midnight (paused for lunch for about an hour) to finish all my work :D that’s 7 hours :o hahaha, with discipline, encouragement and happiness :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

i’ve just been reminded how hopeless this world is.

when i’m free and online, i go around looking at the blogs of other people in my school.. and they’re all talking about wanting to get slimmer, wanting to get rid of their emotions and fatigue, wanting to get loose of life. to put it succintly, hopeless.

they’re all striving for happiness, they’re all looking for it desperately, but they cannot find it.

and what am i doing?

well. that’s sth to think about!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m happy! it’s been 3 days (wow) since i last updated, and yes i am happy! :)

reasons why i am happy:

1. my common tests are over! :) thank God for grace and strength in seeing me through the taking of tests!

2. i got to go to febc night class tonight! it’s a joy that’s been long since i last experienced.. the joy of studying God’s Word. i’ve been really busy with every other thing that i really haven’t had time to sit down and study His Word. i promise that’s the thing i’m going to sit down and do after o levels!! :)

3. I RODE ON G’S BIKE HOMEEEEEE :):):) heh you wont believe how much i do miss that bike!

4. I SAW STARS! stars stars stars! it’s so beautiful against a clear night sky. i’ll miss it.. it’s so rare to see sth like that in sg! wow. i’m really so blessed :)

anyways, thank God for much strength. i fell sick on tuesday.. haha and i had been having to keep late hours in the night. so thank God i’m recovering really well.. wow, it is really of the Lord’s mercies! :)

okaaaay. i’ll stop here cos i still have homework undone. boo.

blessed chinese new year! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

I’M TRYING TO SNEEZE. but i cannot :(

wowowow it’s been a week. it’s going to be a crazy week. thank God for seeing me through 2 tests thus far.. really thank God for wisdom :)

ok gotta do work. update when my common tests are over.

auntie, ahma jiayou (if you both were even free enough to look at this :P)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

burning midnight oil again! drinking coffee again! time flies.

each day i go to school and i just repeat to myself, “6 and a half more hours before school ends.” and soon, that’s going to become “8 to 9 more hours before school ends”. well. how interesting isn’t it?

what do students study for?

when the principal entered into my class, he emphasised on the need for studies, and how it would affect our future.. how ironic that he didn’t see how it would affect our future.

according to human geog: studying –> improves literacy rate –> more contributions to the secondary and tertiary industries –> higher income –> better economy –> development –> ?

it’s just the same cycle over and over again right? so you do that for 20 years, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, and by reason of strength, 80.

then?

Hebrews 9:27, “And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:”

so in the end.. how will all that studying help us in what is to come after death? you study for this lifetime. do you study for the life that is to come? and if it will all just end up in death, why study anyway? useless right?

well. more to come when i will finally sit down and get to update more ;)

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thank God for sustaining me thus far.. thank God for friends. thank God for good friends. thank God for good Christian friends. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

today’s been a sad day for me. i hate thinking about death.. i hate thinking about other people dying (but i love thinking about myself dying).

storm clouds are gathering in the western sky; we’re pilgrims on a journey assigned from on high.

Savior, lead us; lead us; lead us home.

Hebrews 9:27, “And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:”

life. aging. sickness. death. hopeless end without Christ.

1 Corinthians 15:51-52, “Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.”

endless hope with Christ.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

how frail life is. another member of the church has passed away just after an operation.. how frail life truly is!

James 4:14, “Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.”

so quickly does life pass on. i’m already 16! each year passes on faster and faster. never pauses for a moment, no time to waste. it just keeps going on and on!

I wonder, have I done my best for Jesus, Who died upon the cruel tree?

To think of His great sacrifice at Calvary! I know my Lord expects the best from me.

How many are the lost that I have lifted? How many are the chained I’ve helped to free?

I wonder, have I done my best for Jesus, When He has done so much for me?

1 Corinthians 15:55-56, “O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. ”

thank God for hope eternal. a blessed hope eternal!

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i’m pretty tired! but so used to keeping late nights on fridays.. haha. been quite a busy week! but thank God for extra grace. it’s beautiful to have answered prayer!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just saw an offline message from a primary school friend.. it was encouraging message, of how this blog has blessed her! thank God for that, that i am able to encourage others even in this small way :) i actually kind of forgot i have a blog until i saw that msn message :P

well, in the 3-4 days that i did not update (that’s a pretty long time actually), i have once again learnt many many lessons.. somehow i’m learning so many things, and how the Lord has blessed me with people to guide me! :)

i’ve learnt

1. to be sensitive to other people.

as you know (and have probably seen/heard/experienced), i’m quite an insensitive person. it’s not that i dont observe or realise that people are down or sth, it’s just that i dont really know how to help so i end up looking/sounding insensitive. but there are times that i’m just plain insensitive.. which brings me to the next point,

2. to say what i mean.

as i’ve shared before (with my group moses), i find it difficult to talk.. one thing is that i normally cant express myself properly. i cant find the correct words without any nuance, so therefore i end up sounding like i’m indifferent/upset with you/angry/insensitive.

3. to be detached sometimes.

a friend shared with me that sometimes i need to learn how to detach myself from conversations.. i should not be so involved until i get emotional/too thoughtful on every word said. and i should not think too much into certain actions people may do, and end up thinking 1,000,000 (that’s one million, btw) reasons why the person did sth. i should, instead, simply answer the questions objectively!

heh i happened to find this in my camera (which has gathered much dust). this was taken before Christmas!  my bro and i :)

okay byebye apple-pie! :)

hello..

:( i was really distracted and burdened during night class.. could hardly pay attention. but if anything, i did learnt something important!

Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

well. i just know that there’s always so much more in which i can seek God about. i’m kind of stuck nowhere, and i’m feeling quite down (not because of my own problems, dont worry!).. and i dont really know how to help. i guess the only thing i can do is to look into God’s Word and see where the Lord leads me!

was looking at the photos ahma posted on her blog.. what memories! and they do remind me of the many lessons i’ve learnt and ought to remember. honestly.. i’ve been encouraged in the Lord by His people, but at the same time, discouraged too!

okay.. to the work!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i havent updated in a quite a long while.. been quite busy and tired, hardly any time to get onto the computer! but anyway thank God for His grace in seeing me through thus far.

it’s been a learning period, and thank God for lessons learnt, and how He has used me too.

i’ve learnt..

1. not to be an octopus. i dont have so much energy to focus on everyone whom i would love to get to know, so i’m not going to do that.. :)

2. to stop rejecting love from other people. i’m not a burden. i am loved, because the Lord has graciously bestowed His grace and love in my life.

okay that’s all i’ve learnt so far. thank God :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

so rare that i get to update in two days consecutive since school started (ok not really), but anyways, i just updated my “yf camp 09!” post, and here it is, http://thefaithfulfight.wordpress.com/2009/12/19/yf-camp-09/ if you would like to see what i added in :)

Romans 12:2-3, “And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.”

i realise that i have been too harsh on myself in some aspects, such that i have also caused hurt to others in the process.. well, i kept thinking that i have been a big burden to my friends (kor, auntie, etc), and i really hated myself for being so difficult to care for and take care of. i started to withdraw and push away people and just wanted them to stop taking care of me because i thought i had been taking up too much of their time.

how ironic that it is not so.. and how comforting too!

i had been thinking, ok, must have patience! must have patience with K, must be a big jiejie to H, to Edd, to other younger ones in the yf.. but i didn’t realise that in that process, i had forgot to be patient with myself! sounds kind of weird and almost funny, but i just kept wanting to be perfect.

i wanted to be perfect instantly. no mistakes, no errors, stop being a burden (that i thought i was), stop doing all the nonsense, be more serious, be nicer, be more friendly, try to reach out more to people, stop withdrawing myself..

growth takes time, and carbon cant turn into diamond in one night. i had forgotten that..

and the learning process had been a difficult and v tiring one.. but at the same time i realised that people have been having a lot of patience with me, and have shown me a lot of love. thank God for brothers and sisters in Christ!

well, of course i’m still afraid that i’ll be a burden to others.. and if i am please tell me -_-

okay, thank God for that! :)

aside from that, thank God that i do not have to go back to the scoliosis clinic because my spine condition is officially okay, and i do not have to waste time taking x-rays and etc. thank God! :)

anddd. thank God also for ahma’s unexpected sms yesterday. as i said, i do feel pressure when i talk or even just stand near ahma, auntie, and generally people who are older than me.. which is not exactly right because there is no need for that..

i dunno. need to try and get rid of these feelings, with the Lord’s enablement!

are we all still in constant prayer and meditation?

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello.

how interesting it is that the Lord is so willing to bless.. i have really been taking the many people in my life for granted!

mei, you silly silly girl! i still dont understand how people in my life can bear with me at all, and not find me troublesome or irritating. i’m really amazed at how the love of God is shown through these people in my life, and how much patience they have..

i get tired of myself so often!

so many things have happened in one weekend. i’m amazed too!

going for nightclass tonight, so i better get my homework done now :) thank God for His marvellous providence. finally will get to sit on G’s bike after so looooooong. but more importantly! 1 Kings! what a super interesting book! really really really interesting, i wish i could go for all the night classes, but i dont think i can afford that much time.

so as the Lord leads!

byebye apple-pie!

hello! :)

thank God. for many things in my life! and for friends.

i think i’ve been too insecure and childish. for too long! i was thinking, friendships will end when the new school term starts, since everyone gets busy and caught up in their own world, but i now know that there are people who hold me dear to their hearts, and are praying for me everyday. thank God. when i was feeling very down too! friendships dont have to be shown in the number of words one says to another, the number of smses sent one to another, etc — and i’ve experienced that myself too.

how blessed! a silent smile. just have a friend sitting beside you. prayers one for another. the Lord knows! :)

of course, as auntie has said, our best friend is still in the Lord Jesus Christ.. no greater love! and i’ve learnt that i really really really need to pray more and meditate more on God’s Word! there’s just too much to study, too much to pray for, but so little heart!

thank God for week 1 of the academic 2010. i will begin my countdown as to how many more weeks there are to the end of O levels. i’m so optimistic, because i know i’m doing it for my Lord! i just pray this optimism for Christ will not die down.

waiting for the Lord’s return, what a glorious and beautiful wait! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m getting quite tired. the first week of school is not even ended but i’ve been quite discouraged.. still, thanks be unto God!

feel quite left behind. there’s no one to talk to in school. people whom i’m trying to reach out to dont even want to say hi to me.. Edd looked so despondent during prayer meeting.. hardly get to talk to anyone in church cos everyone’s so busy. i miss yf terribly (after spending like 3 weeks together almost)..

been praying for the Lord to give me a good friend, one whom i can talk to face to face, and mutually encourage one another in the Lord.. maybe the Lord has already given me one, but i just keep doubting. and i just keep running away. running away seems to have become my natural response for whatever situations i have to deal with.. it just became a way of life. i never even realised it! :(

wellll. i dont know where to start. i dont know when’s the end.

always in remembrance? have i forgotten?

byebye apple-pie.. :S

hello!

first 2 days of school were boring! no lessons :( but thanks be unto God.. for i am tasting of His good hand again and again :)

good reports from my teacher and classmates.. how thankful i am! i was quite afraid about how i would be in school, esp after one and a half months of being v immersed in church. it was quite weird to be back, and i was afraid about how my testimony would be in school. i was afraid (and still am) that i would just revert back to what i was, cynical and sarcastic, and just lose myself.

thank God, it was so encouraging that my teacher came to commend me on the effort put in. the Lord does open unbelievers’ eyes to see His hand working.. so may they see but Christ alone and only, not me!

aside from that, i went for night class yesterday! thank God for provision, and that i did not have to inconvenience others excessively. i didnt have any transport home yesterday night, cos i did not tell G the night before that i needed a helmet.. wow, how the Lord provides!

cant tell you how much i enjoy playing the piano too! releases stress, and causes me to ponder upon the hymns as i play them. interesting!

well, i’m a bit afraid for the new acadamic term. will friendships last when everyone gets so busy? even in the yf, even though we meet each other a few times a week (prayer meeting, yf, sunday, etc), the sharings and fellowship are all quite on the surface since no one has any time.. will the Lord preserve the friendship that i have fought so hard to keep? i dont know, i really dont.

pray pray and pray more! what a privilege it is to be able to sit at the feet of my blessed Saviour, and that He listens and knows! :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. cant help but worry over some things! will the Lord preserve? i can only pray so!

stupid fat pig. :( sighhh.

hello!

i’m 16 this year. it’s 2010. i keep forgetting -_-

anywaaaaaaaaays i broke a promise and didn’t finish my homework (for those who are wondering about what i posted on fb). well, it wasn’t so much as to whom i had made the promise to, but the main point is that i broke the promise. not hardworking enough la :(

i’m supposed to stay up tonight to finish everything.. but i hardly slept in the afternoon. uhoh :(

netball today was v good! thank God for good weather, He is really so gracious to His people! i really enjoyed myself today. i really had butter fingers haha, thank God people were patient with me! :) netball netball netball, someone please organise again :)

aside from that, tmr’s going to be the first yf meeting of the year! looking forward to it! :)

looking back, what a year 2009 has been! i cant exactly remember how it started actually, but i dont think i’ll ever forget how it ended. 09 was and is a testimony of how God can open eyes to see His will in lives.. still amazed at how the hand of God works. :)

slowly learning, slowly walking.. step by step, step by step, keeping step with Jesus; every day, all the way, keeping step with Jesus. really wonder how the Lord will lead!

okay i’m v hungry now. thank God for people who take care of me! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

may the Lord help me to be a friend that is able to fulfil in every way Pr 17:17! :)

less than 48 hours to year end. and thanks be to God that instead of being found at some party to welcome in the new year, i will be found in church (by the grace of God)! i do love watch night services, and i still remember what i wore last year i think.

and i have not finished my homework. BUT surprisingly, i’ve been able to complete (sort of) my triple sciences within 2 days. it wasnt as much as i thought it was on sunday, i was being a bit too drama.. but anyway i feel a bit guilty cos i’m not doing every thing i’m supposed to do. -_-

you wont believe how mentally torturing it is to sit down at my desk and keep doing bio. so booooooooooring. but thank God for encouragement and entertainment :P ok la, bio isnt as boring as i make it be, i just enjoy making things sound very boring to make myself sound very intellectual LOL.

ok but that’s not good also.

1 Peter 5:6 “Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:” :)

ok i’m going out for lunch againnnn. byebye apple-pie!

hello!

“My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue, but in deed and in truth.” (1 John 3:18)

what an encouragement from Scripture! :) but i have to learn how to talk properly and stop talking rubbish! really hope to be able to serve through actions and not merely through words!

the new year is coming (and i have not done my HOMEWORK).

netbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

what an eventful holiday this has been for me! so many things have happened, and i would love to recount them all in all, but, i think it would suffice to say that this holiday has been a real roller-coaster ride for me, and i’ve found true friends in godly company :)

WE GOT WII IN OUR HOUSE NOW hahaha. -_-

okay wont say much here. the rest is reserved for your cards and letters which will be coming tomorrow! :P combined Christmas and New Year’s card. so smart.

it’s nice to know you have brothers and sisters in Christ praying for you each day! but what a sweeter comfort to know that our Heavenly Father listens to all our prayers and delights in them if they be from a righteous heart! :)

thank you auntie! thank you kor! :)

anyways dont know if people still read these things, but it’s okay if you dont. i would just like to look back 10 years later (God willing!) and see if i have grown, and how much i can thank God for all these small things that happen. i’m 1 and a half decades old! :D

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

thank God for a blessed YF camp. it feels weird to finally be at home when i haven’t exactly been at home permanently for v long, and i’m going to msia next week too haha. but anyway, let’s not digress!

thank God for many lessons learnt, i really learnt the importance of prayer and how to pray. which makes me really happy because prayer is the powerhouse of the church! i really want to pray more now! :)

but most of all, thank God for problems solved.. we left them hanging for too long, but they have finally been solved. i cannot explain to you the joy i have in my heart that i can finally regain a brother in Christ back! but at the same time, i hope that i will remember the ups and downs and how i depended on God when my strength was really gone.

God answers prayer. and miracles do happen.. what blessedness!

2009 has been a testimony of God’s hand in my life, and how He really upholds me with His hand.

Tho dark be the night and long be the day, Lord, make me follow in Thy perfect way.

Tho cometh sorrow, tho great be my pain; Lord, make me serve Thee, come sunshine or rain.

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, And He delighteth in His way.

Tho he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholdeth Him with His hand.

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this was my earnest prayer, when i thought the friendship was really destined to end. the eyes of man can be blind to his or her own problems, but God knows the way of His children, and lovingly guides them. it has been a difficult time accepting that this had been all part of God’s plan for me, but it is especially sweet when you see how things end, for God is faithful.

in constant prayer and meditation..

byebye apple-pie!

(edit — 12/Jan/2010)

well, i thought i had mentioned it here when i typed out this post.. i probably did not because i had not reflected and learnt the lesson until a few days after the yf camp.

anyways, through the trouble i went through during the yf camp, it finally dawned upon me the lesson that the Lord had been wanting me to learn through the 6 months after church camp in june..

Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

when i had talked to the auntie the wedneday after the yf camp, we talked about some things.. and she mentioned sth like “we were worried because it was not so much of the issue itself, but rather how you had reacted to it”. what she said troubled me quite a bit, because i wondered why i had been so caught up too.

but after thinking.. i realised one thing, it was simply that i had not been trusting the Lord enough!

each step of the way, i just kept questioning.. why Lord? why have you allowed this to happen? is this in your plan? are you sure this is what you really wanted for me?

and that resulted in a lot of problems because i didnt want to accept God’s will in my life for me, and i just kept revisiting the past because i could not accept what happened!

what a big lesson i leant, truly, TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL THINE HEART! even though i had thought i had trusted the Lord, i never really let it go. i didnt know how to let go! but finally finally finally, i did.. with the help of kor and the auntie!

never to be forgotten! :) all praise and honour be unto His holy name! :)

hello!

yf camp is tomorrow, but somehow i’m not feeling that excited.. just alil worried about some things, and thinking about the past and wondering about the future.

well. i dont really know what to say either.

what’s past is past.

okay i’m v tired but i still have a lot of things to do. i haven’t packed yet.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just came back a few hours ago from tab church camp.. new experience, more friends, good fellowship. i was quite happy, and actually a bit reluctant to come back if i hadn’t been in the children’s programme :P

but anyway this year, things were really different, and i learnt to be a real nanny. cool huh. learnt from the real experienced people in tab, so i’m a fierce nanny if i need to be now. can call me for any babysitting jobs, just make sure your kids can take my shouting and discipline.

but honestly, there were times i felt quite weird doing all that. i mean, this is hardly what 15-year-olds do in their hols, go around helping for other churches’ church camps, and disciplining children in the strictest voices. it’s just different from what other people my age would be doing.

nevertheless, still worth giving thanks to God for! thank God He saw us through the 5 lessons through 4 days. v v v tiring each day, cos it’s v tiring disciplining the children. i myself need some discipline too. just sleep like a pig every time i got the chance to -_-

all the kids and teachers! :)

well, i really got to know the kids better this time. and, i actually improved my chinese! now i realise that i’m more comfortable talking in chinese (a bit more comfortable only), but still lots more to improve! :)

okay i’m v tired. still got some yf camp things to clear up.. after 1 week of waiting, things still arent done -_-

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m going off for tab bp’s church camp!

AHMA! :) just one more week to tahan.. jiayou! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m currently watching a show called The Moment of Truth (on Channel 5).. cold hard cash really brings out the worst in people. it’s so horrific to watch people spilling the beans just for money, and they’re just not ashamed about what they have done. it’s a horrible world.

for money money money.

horrible horrible horrible money.

well, it reminds me of the judgement day that every single soul will have to go through when the day comes — the truth, the whole truth, and only the truth will be asked and our consciences will bear witness of our sins. in that day, there will really be only the truth.

what a scary day that will be, if we are not washed by the blood of the Lamb.

sends chills down my spine. :(

byebye apple-pie..

hello.

when past sins catch up with you..

“Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart.” (2 Timothy 2:22)

when you grow numb to your sins.. it’s horrible.

byebye apple-pie.

hello.

work is good. work helps you to forget. work distracts you from distracting things and makes you concentrate. work helps you to meditate on God’s Word and not on other things. work is very good.

thank God for work.

okay i’m not working now (like a job) but i’ve been doing other things (i.e. housework -_-) which do help me to take my mind off stuff i should not be thinking of. instead, i revise other psalms that i have memorised to see if they are still in my memory.

today till saturday are work days! becuase i have tons of school work not finished. vbs took up a lot a lot of time. but i’m sure the Lord has reserved His blessings for those who took time off to serve Him.. :)

i hope i wont be distracted and will be able to focus on doing my work.

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

i was angry and hurt and miserable and unhappy and sad and grieving and pained and sorrowful and dismayed and distressed and disheartened (okay not that bad) but.. the joy of the LORD is my strength!

jealousy is a horrible sin. and it is really a sin of the pride of life. it just keeps growing and growing when you do not put the sin behind you and turn away from it. without seeking God, it’s just a snowballing sin which can only grow bigger — just like all other sins.

the struggles are always painful because you really feel like forgetting and letting go. but when i do not seek God’s will, and simply turn to myself and look for a way to go, it just becomes more and more unclear and i just get lost by myself.

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i’m not in a bad mood. i’m just in a thinking mood even though i’m quite tired.

honouring God is not always as easy as it seems to be..

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i need rest but i just cant sleep :(

vbs start today was horrible, found some things broken, and i had to cause trouble to cmc people to check if it was their kids who did it.. sometimes i’m really so tired when people don’t communicate well because of their lack of initiative. :((

heard about the psle results too.. my heart kind of broke, but still, thank God for His providence. sometimes you never know God’s will in your life until these things are past. pray that they will be able to accept this as part of God’s plan for them!

i feel quite detached from everyone too.. no time and no energy to sit down properly to talk to everyone, or i just cant click with them. trying to make the break, but i’m not sure if i can do it.

am i doing it all by my own strength? no wonder i’m failing.. and when i am faltering, i still will find You there..? i’m getting lost..

i’m really discouraged.. :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m finally back in the afternoon! i felt as though i haven’t been home for so long! and i’m still v tired, but much better after taking a short nap.. i took half an hour to get to sleep -_- i think i’m a fussy sleeper (just like how i’m a fussy eater and drinker).

anyways i wont be around for most of december, going off for tabernacle b-p church camp from 7-11, yf camp the next week, then family trip to KL, then Christmas! my parents will be off to korea next week, so i dont get to see them properly until 3 weeks later :(

“I must work the words of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.” (John 9:4)

tired, but let us continue to press on, for the night is soon coming!

can’t wait to get out of singapore and leave behind the distractions! but i’ll be back anyway :(

never learn to treasure the friends i have.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i find it weird that i’m blogging now, because i still have many things to do.. i think it’s really when i’m so busy that i find so much joy in looking back on my day and seeing how God’s grace has seen me through. it’s a blessing to be able to commit the whole day into God’s hands, and at dusk, look back and know that it is not of your own strength that things have been done..

today was.. a busy day, obviously, but more importantly, there were certain things that i had thought about.

i realised that silence is a good way to deal with things, especially when you don’t know what to reply to what somebody has said. and this is esp applicable for me cos i tend to be very rash with my words. silence is a good thing.

well, i have also learnt that it is best to do what i have on my hands well, and wait for God’s will in more things.. right now, at this point in time, what i have on my hands (that i consider as important) are studies, family, children (kids in church), fellow pilgrims — and my duty is to make sure that i do well in keeping my Christian testimony.

“Abstain from all appearance of evil.” (1 Thess 5:22)

sins may not be crimes, but they are still sins. the world will judge for the crimes of the people, but God will judge the sin of the world.. i pray that i will not be a stumbling block to others — it may be but the appearance of evil, but it can and will stumble others.

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the vbs will be starting tomorrow, and my preps are not done :S just a bit more, just need a bit more time. i really really pray i will be able to wake up on time tomorrow, otherwise i am dead.

okay byebye apple-pie!

hello!

finally going to sleep after a night’s worth of working. who said secondary school students are free during their holidays? work as hard (or harder) than uni students having their exams okay!

just kidding (about working v hard). but yes, i’m still working hard.

anyways i thought i might as well write down some lessons i’ve learnt in case i forget them (cos i’m growing old and forgetful),

1. envy is a sin, and it will eat you up from the inside — sometimes envy can’t be seen, it’s a sin from the heart. but thoughts will become actions, actions become a habit, and habits make a person’s character (i learnt that in chinese class).. and it’s true, envy will only make you feel worse and worse.

10th commandment says not to covet — rev quek said it’s as if God is saying that whatever is not included in the first 9 commandments, it will be covered in the 10th. indeed the lust of the eyes, the lust of the flesh and the pride of life are really tempting.

2. pray more — i just keep learning this again and again. never tires. when you’re in trouble, seek God. when you’re tired, seek God. when you’re just lonely, seek God.

seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you. blessings come from seeking God through His Word and through prayer.. so seek God more!

3. artists are egoistic (heh).

4. i need penmanship, according to a particularly egoistic artist. (just some random things.)

5. God’s grace never runs out. the song, Grace, really reminds me of this constantly. indeed, His will cannot lead me where His grace will not keep me. His grace is everywhere i am, for He is indeed an omnipresent God. so it’s a reminder to me to seek after God’s will in everything that i do, that i may do His will.. for there, grace abounds.

i find it especially comforting, also, that when i am faltering, i still will find you there, because God does not let go of His children once they falter. instead, He lovingly leads and guides them back, makes them stronger each time they fall..

let go, let God!

okay 5 things that were learnt/happened yesterday (it’s 2am now).

later, i will wake up at 8, and i will go to church and do 1001 things. in the speed of lightning. just kidding (when i’m tired, i talk a lot of rubbish). people cant even travel at the speed of light. they can only go less than the speed of light. people are bound by time and space because we were born in time and space.

dont you think God is really great. He exists out of time and space, and He controls time — He helped the Israelites to win a battle by stopping time.. not bound by time or space? simply unimaginable, isn’t it! God is wondrous.. :)

okay i better go and sleep..

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i woke up on time ^_^ it’s 30 days, or 742 hours, or 44568 minutes to Christmas eve as of this second. but before that, i wont be at home for a month. zoooooooooom!

hello..

Lord, as I seek your guidance for the day, I find my thoughts unyielding, confusion crowds my way,

But then when I bow to You, the challenges You guide me through, Your promises are ever new, I claim them for today.

Your will cannot lead me where your grace will not keep me, Your hand will protect me, I rest in Your care,

Your eyes will watch over me, Your love will forgive me, And when I am faltering, I still will find You there.

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what comforting words.. truly, sinful creatures like us do falter and stumble many times, but God is always gracious to allow us to stand up again under the shadow of His wings.. what an almighty God we have. :)

anyways, thank God i have also really found my joy back in singing. before, i sang to please men, and that gave me a lot of pressure, and took out all the joy there was in singing.. but when i turned back to God, there is more joy with every note that i sing. sing unto God.. :)

this whole week will be v busy, and the bdc team is leaving on thursday (before netball! aww!).. seeking God in prayer for strength!

ahma, please get well soon! :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i added a new page, But God, so you can take a look! it’s sth like a personal sharing of how God has blessed me through the verse.. not v in depth, cos most of the people around me know how the verse has really spoken to me. :)

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oh yes, i thought it would be good to include in here before i forget.

thank God especially for yesterday’s yf agm+elections. to me, it was a hair-raising event, i had heart palpitations once or twice, actually. truly, prayer for wisdom and grace is really needed, to seek God’s will in the direction the yf should take. heh, at least i have another 8 years (if the Lord should tarry) before i graduate to yaf ;)

small committee, younger yfers.. “… for there is no restraint to the LORD to save my many or by few.” (1 Samuel 14:6c)

:)

hello!

today was the most sotong-ish day of my life -_- (must record down in case i ever have a more sotong-ish day), cant believe the things i did! the mistakes i made.. which resulted in 4 v unique souvenirs.

but aside from that, thank God for the concern of fellow pilgrims, and their patience aplenty. i dont know what was wrong with me either, just woke up out of slumber i think. think too much then suddenly have to meet other people, breaks the trail of thoughts and leaves Yours Truly lost.

well, thank God for seeing the yf through agm&elections. another year is about to pass, 107 is coming back to yf (yay!), and 3 other Es are leaving.. we all move on. just trying to get the spark to get me going.

kind of feel myself letting go too. thank God.

sunset! point-and-shoot cameras really cannot bring out the brilliance in God’s creation, unfortunately.. but at least they do store up memories!

okay tomorrow is vbs briefing, so i should be sleeping earlier (hmm) so that i wont be as sotong as today -_-

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m v v v tired and my arm is really aching. babysitting is not so glamorous after all ;) got drool all over my shirt and limbs! 妈妈真的最好！children really suck out all your brain power!

but after one whole day of work i feel kind of empty. funny feeling.. dont really know how to describe it. i’m only 15! why am i wasting my time thinking about all these kind of things?

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Christmas is coming in about a month’s time. this year-end period always brings back some good and bad memories, but thanks to God for seeing us all through..

1. 1st ever missions trip — Kemaman!

2. vbs! every year the same thing, quite tiring, esp to serve in the organising committee. but God’s blessings do come with serving “in the front line”. :)

3. yf camp! yf camps are always.. a time for spiritual nourishment and to revive your lives, making sure they really revolve around God’s Word. they are also a time for us all to reflect on the years we have been Christians, and see if and how we have grown — will never forget my 1st yf camp when i was so hot tempered haha. so embarrassing + funny at the same time. ^_^

4. Christmas eve. every year the choir will sing our famous cantatas, but this year.. somehow, i think it wont be too different, but every week, choir seems to have become a burden. but i’m slowly getting the joy back.. slowly slowly!

5. Christmas carolling! :)

6. 2nd ever missions trip — Cambodia! nothing special, but i was blessed to be able to go with the C family and my bro. good company = enjoyable trip to serve God! :)

but somehow it will all be quite different this year, i think. i dont know, just hope i wont be distracted by the things/people around me, and i’ll be able to focus on Christ!

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i woke up quite a few times in the night to find that my whole right arm was numb. it wasnt in any weird position, so the blood flow wasnt blocked.. must be all the babies i was carrying yesterday :P my fingers are also like ice. so cold!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

“Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it. Vanity of vanities, saith the preacher; all is vanity.” (Ecclesiastes 12:7-8)

been pretty busy doing a lot of prep work for the vbs, but it gave me a lot of time to think, esp when i was doing a lot of repetitive work like cutting out shapes, etc. recently J went for her school’s grad night, and the only thought that came to my mind after everything: vanity of vanities.

spent so much money on clothes, accessories (clutch, hairband), going to a nair palour to get nice toenails, just for a night out with people who are all doing the same thing — vanity, isn’t it?

oh well — only one life, ’twill soon be past, only what’s done for Christ will last.

i’m just happy i’m spending my time doing things that will count for eternity, even though they can be really boring things. as unto the Lord! :)

anyways,

10 and 9, 8 and 7, 6 and 5 and 4, call upon the Saviour while you may! 3 and 2, coming through the clouds in bright array, the countdown’s getting lower everyday! hee :)

cant wait for 2011! graduating away from secondary school (YAY) and something else special! just cannot wait :)

meanwhile, will have to live each day with desire to please the Lord :)

off to do work! byebye apple-pie!

hello!

yesterday was such a good and bad day for me.

in the same day, i lost the joy of singing, and found it back again. i finally feel things are returning to normal.. but we never know.

thank God!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i just realised i haven’t blogged for almost a week! so many things to do, finally all done! :)

thank God the academic year has finally come to a close, i really couldn’t wait for school to end. not that i particularly hate school, but i just dislike waking up so early everyday. lazy bum. :S but truly, thank God it’s all over. i can’t wait for O levels! :)

went to ECP yesterday after babysitting at FEBC :) it was good having supper at carl’s junior then walk walk a bit. L is so cute! he learnt a new word yesterday, bubble! we were playing with bubbles yesterday, so he learnt the word :D E E and E were all also so energetic even though it was so late..

so good to be with God’s people :)

well, my hols are going to be packed with a lot of prep and events, not really la, but somehow it just seems v busy and tiring. there’s vbs, then there’s yf camp, and a lot of prep work in between, plus studying also. it’s going to be a busy holiday!

better than doing nothing at home :)

okay i’m hungry. byebye apple-pie! :)

hello.

i hate it when people give up on me, or seem like they are :( i’m trying not to disappoint, but i find it so difficult and hard to keep up with everything. sometimes i even forget why i sing.. not good! :( sometimes i really feel like giving up and just letting go of everyth then just sing normally and like everyone else. sing for what. sing also sound so horrible. even laoshi says so. and i can be so difficult to teach.

dont know why the two laoshis are so patient with me. i would have been fed up with me long ago and just kicked me aside.

“But he knoweth the way that i take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.” (Job 23:10)

my good friend going off tmr :( so sad, my good good friend flying away and leaving me here in sg. sian.

“My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?” (Psalm 22:1)

“Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” — but even then i will never feel the loneliness the Lord Jesus Christ had felt on that very day He had died for our sins.

i think sometimes i forget what i’m asking for, it seems like i really am asking for trouble. sights and sounds which are attractive are often times the way that leads to death.

“But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.” (James 1:14-15)

sometimes home can be the very place i’m discouraged too.

“Thou makest us a strife unto our neighbours: and our enemies laugh among themselves.” (Psalm 80:6)

okay i’m tired. dont want to think anymore. i need a break (not a kitkat!).

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” (Psalm 37:4)

God’s will is the best way.. :) glad for God’s revelation of His will in my life. just pray that i will follow it even though it may be difficult!

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i’m so tired. reliving the same nightmare every week. never know how to let go and let God.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i cant wait for 2011 for quite a few reasons!

one, so i can attend a very very very nice wedding (yay) :) testimony of God’s grace and mercy!

two, so i can graduate out of secondary school and move on to jc! i feel kind of desperate to get out of secondary school. don’t really know why either, but anyways, it should be fun studying for O levels.

i think i should start a countdown to 1 Jan 2011 for fun, or 31 Dec 2010. sth like that, make me wait in anticipation. right now, it’s.. 422 days to 31 Dec 2010, or 423 days to 1 Jan 2011 :) yay and it will soon zoooooooom by in no time! so fast!

but of course, only if the Lord tarries.. :) but coming to think about it, the rapture will be far better than any of these things. thinking about it always makes me happy :)

can you believe it?! it’s already november 2009. time really passes so fast, but in a good way i guess. i started this blog 6 months ago, with a total of 128 posts (including this).. i cant wait for Christmas! but vbs and yf camp before that :)

anyways i finally finally uploaded the photos from my camera, and i saw a full moon yesterday, but it was v cool! it reflected some colours (like a rainbow) around the clouds beside it,

cool right! but the camera really really doesn’t do justice to the scene i saw last night.. you could really see the vibrancy of the colours etc. kind of disappointing..

but it’s okay. at least i saw it :P

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

it’s been a while, or at least it feels like it’s been a really long while! school is still continuing, and i’m trying to get back my mood to study. hmmm :S

anyways thank God for night class last night, it will be quite a while before i can attend them again, cos i dont really know if i can manage my time well enough to go for next year’s night class for the first semester.. committing all into God’s hands!

learning to sing is not an easy thing :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

today was results day but i didn’t bring back my report book cos i didn’t hand in the travel plan form -_- anyways i couldn’t get the scholarship cos i was just short of one position, but it’s okay, i’m still eligible for bursary! thank God, from whom all blessings flow :)

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The Master hath come and He calls us to follow;
The track of His footprints He leaves on our way.
Far over the mountains and through the deep hollow,
The path leads us on to the masions of day.

The Master hath called us, the children who fear Him,
Who march ‘neath Christ’s banner, HIs own little band.
We love Him and seek Him, we long to be near Him
And rest in the light of His beautiful land.

The Master hath called us; the road may be dreary,
And dangers and sorrows are strewn on the track.
But God’s Holy Spirit shall comfort the weary;
We follow the Saviour and cannot turn back.

The Master hath called us; Though doubt and temptation
May compass our journey, we cheerfully sing,
“Press onward, look upward,” through much tribulation;
The children of Zion must follow their King.

The Master hath called us in life’s early morning,
With spirits as fresh as the dew on the sod.
We turn from the world with its smiles and its scorning
To cast in our lot with the people of God.

The Master hath called us, His sons and His daughters;
We plead for His blessing and trust in His love;
And through the green pastures, beside the still waters,
He’ll lead us at last to His kingdom above.

The Master hath called us, the children who fear Him,
Who march ‘neath Christ’s banner, His own mighty band.
We love Him and seek Him, we long to be near Him
And rest in the light of His beautiful land.

We love Him and seek Him, we long to be near Him
And rest in the light of His beautiful land.

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one of my favourite songs that the choir has sung. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

will edit tomorrow when i have all my results back.. much to thank God for! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

life is not all that good, but thank God for the peace that passes all understanding. feel very weird sometimes. i kind of miss studying. helps you keep your head off a lot of things.

be sober and vigilant.

i feel like saying a lot of things that i know i will definitely regret saying here later on. the blog is not for my own personal use. it’s for God’s glory and therefore i’m not going to say anything here that i know isn’t good for my Christian testimony!

burdened heart.. but God knows!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m v tired, and i’m going to sleep right after this even though it’s dinner time.

anyways this week hasn’t been the best week, i feel quite far from everyone. so close, yet so far (sounds cheesy but it’s true). even when we’re all squeezed together, it just feels as though i dont belong anywhere. it’s hard to overcome obstacles, because i dont think i have any more energy to do all that. people dont have energy to pull me across either.

it’s okay.

i tried my hand at designing clothes for fun. i purpose in my mind that i’m going to learn sewing so i can do sth cool. hmm if i have the time!

my head is spinning!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m having a throat infection (the normal sore throat thing), and i’m quite tired cos of a full-day course (which i still have to go through for another 4 days!). oh well. not really enjoying myself since we all get so lethargic so easily.

anyways i went window shopping yesterday. looked at some baby clothes and stuff for Christmas (guess for who!) :P going to save up soon so i can afford to give sth from my heart! :)

i was thinking about church camp again cos i was listening to the church camp messages (for the third time already i think haha). almost 6 months have passed, going to be yf camp now! still a bit apprehensive, still a bit worried, still a bit of everything.

i think sometimes i can be such an ah-girl and an auntie and an ahma all at the same time.. never know how to let go of things, never know how to stop worrying, never know how to stop looking back.

then ten years later, when every thing is passed, i’ll be looking back at 2009 and wondering why i was such and such a person. it will be all funny then when i’m trying to recall what happened that made me so uptight in the first place. that will be the day (if the Lord doesnt come first!)..

feel as though i’m slowly changing into someone who’s a loner and doesnt belong anywhere. hmm dont know if that’s a good thing or bad.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

there’s a cockroach in my house! and my mother is the cockroach-buster who’s supposed to pass her skills down to my brother who is horrible cos he has lousy aiming. hahaha and i’m sitting outside here doing stuff on the com ^_^ my mother caught it! :) yay ma ma zui bang!

anyways exams are over, thank God for seeing me through all of them! now i have a lot more better things to do (i.e. prep for vbs, tab church camp).. cannot wait! but also need a lot of tedious prep and thinking through, esp for the vbs! so need to jy also. yf camp too!

going for monday night class! :):):) haha finally have time to go for both!

time passes so quickly. another year has past. what a bitter-sweet year.. :)

thank God for it!

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello!

:)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength:” (Isaiah 26:3-4)

not feeling well again. woke up too early -_- but it’s okay. anyway H’s PSLE is over so i’m feeling quite happy for her ^_^ thank God for seeing her through it. may God see me through my exams too.. :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i took away the video. G says Andrew Lloyd Webber is a heretic because of his Jesus Superstar or sth like that, a musical he wrote. she said it had a theory sth similar to that of Dan Brown’s Da Vinci Code. :( oh well sth new i learnt!

hello!

deleted my cheesecakemusings. thank you auntie.. :)

anyways, i took two papers today, they weren’t as hard as i had thought them to be.. thank God really! cos i went for night class the night before and had less time to study. but i still think studying God’s Word is important, and i really wanted to go for night class. so thank God!

i went for some shopping in the night. i really didn’t know i was so picky with clothes.. haha! after 1h 45min, i had only bought two things.. and when i reached home, i realised that the shoes i bought were of different sizes! which means i have to waste time going back and exchanging the shoes! :(

but anyway. nice shoes. so at least i dont feel so angry. heh.

okay need to go and sleep. tomorrow is study study study! except i have to go out specially to change the shoes! :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

brooooooooom brooooooooom on motorcycle from night class to home! it was freezing cold tonight but it was good. kept me awake.. :)

:) still enjoying God’s blessings in the midst of my exams! thank God! tomorrow’s a difficult emaths p1 and ss p1. i think it’s going to be a difficult day..

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thine ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6 (i think). no time to look up the actual verse!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

haha i shouldn’t be on the com.. but anyway, today i saw two distinguished guests who thought i was v popular! hahaha so funny.. :) made my day just to see them!

anyways i got 2nd place in another essay competition, which i didn’t even know i had taken part in (hmm).. praise God from whom all blessings flow! :) i was just thinking.. cos i had to pay for a lot of things this week, that if i honour God, He will provide for me, and indeed He has! :)

even though it’s not always smooth when we walk with God, how He blesses us so many times! :)

verse for the day!: Psalm 138:3, “In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.”

i like how lukey’s grandma always sings ‘step by step’ when people walk him around.. step by step, step by step, keeping step with Jesus; every day, all the way, i will follow Jesus! slowly learning, slowly walking.. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m looking for Mary Lynn Lightfoot’s version of Dona Nobis Pacem. i really really really want it, but I’m not sure if I should buy it online cos I’m not sure if I want it that badly :P anyway, it’s a really beautiful piece, so if the children’s choir or even the church choir can sing it, it will be really wonderful.

it’s not a solo piece btw!

exams are just round the corner and i’ve to study v v v hard to continue going for prayer meeting, night class, tcf and yf. shan’t spend any more time on the com (i spent 1 hour looking for the score online but i only got half the score of Dona Nobis Pacem -.-)

everybody please jiayou! busy month for all of us :):):) AHMA JY :) AUNTIE ALSO :) (although it’s your break now!!!) ABEL’S MUMMY (if you see this!) and for people who are sick (papa/ahkong/uncle!) please get well asap. keeping you all in my prayers :)

verse for the day: Philippians 3:14, “I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i really miss those days when i have the time to update every day! hahaha but thank God for keeping me busy too! an idle mind is the devil’s workshop! but of course a busy mind isn’t always devoted to God.. but pray that our minds will be! :)

hello! :)

i’ve won the competition! thank God! :) but i was a bit sad that this was won through voting rather than through a panel of judges actually judging the writing.. but anyway, this is a first step to something new, so thank God! can’t believe my siblings were so enthusiastic for me.. they got so many of their friends to vote for me that within one day, i had doubled and almost tripled the second place no. of votes!

:) so sweet of them! but also means i have to share the prize with them :P

anyways, this week has been quite a whirl for me, didn’t feel so well on monday and thursday (and had to skip night-class! :S), and had my Chinese paper today. hee last night i learnt quite a few idioms to use in my compo ^_^ haha thank God that’s over! :)

fastfoward to 1:52. the soprano’s voice is perfect, even though i don’t really like her dressing.. was searching for the perfect piece, none was as perfect as this. just wish it was a choir singing though ;)

okay byebye apple-pie!

HELLO.

URGENT AND HEARTFELT REQUEST! :)

http://www.wazzup.sg/contest/entries.php?contestID=34 PLEASE VOTE FOR ME WHEN MY ARTICLE COMES UP. cos if i win or sth, then i will get to go to ntuc writing dept or sth like that and learn about the press holdings, etc. which is quite cool. but anyways.. all glory goes to God if i should win anything! :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. MY ARTICLE IS UP, PLEASE VOTEEEEEEEEEE! thanks :)

hello! :)

All things bright and beautiful!

this is one of the many things i’ve been dooling in school.. :P and i scanned it in and added in the words (but they’re not v nice cos the full version couldn’t fit into the white space :S). the sea creatures are obviously not real representations of what’s really in the sea, and the turtles look weird.. but it’s okay cos i can always do another one :)

okay need to do my homework on Ruth already!

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello!

today was a horrible day in school for me! i was feeling v sick and dizzy in school, and i took a cab home cos i was afraid i would vomit in the bus if i had to squeeze with everyone else or sth. so anyway, thank God i did that cos 3 minutes after i reached home, i vomited!

i’ve officially learnt my lesson never to wake up at 3am in the morning -.-

but through it all, thank God :) taught me to really trust in God and depend on Him for strength.. after the vomiting, i slept for 3 hours in an air-con room. blessing in disguise, methinks :)

anyway i just realised that it takes 25-30 min to get home from school if you take bus, but if you take a cab or car, it just takes 10 min. speed of light! zoom zoom zoom.

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Happiness is to know the Saviour, living a life within His favour,
Having a change in my behaviour, happiness is the Lord.

Happiness is a new creation, Jesus and me in close relation,
Having a part in His salvation, happiness is the Lord.

Real joy is mine, no matter if teardrops start,
I’ve found the secret — it’s Jesus in my heart!

Happiness is to be forgiven, living a life that’s worth the living,
Taking a trip that leads to heaven, happiness is the Lord.

i just wonder how many people can say the same thing i can! a child of promise, a child of God.. :):):) blessed assurance!

sunset!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

these few days have been v busy for me, thank God for strength and grace :) ate nice katong laksa with nice people yesterday. :P

anyways thank God for the church quiz which really helped me to study and learn God’s Word, even though i was kind of disappointed that we didn’t do very well.. but i learnt to be content ;)

after our group finished the botanic gardens round, we came back only to find that two other groups had already reached, so i said sth like, “Why didn’t we get first?!” immediately after that, i got hit by a leaf or sth when no one else sitting under the tree had been hit. :P lesson learnt!

well, being able to go for prayer meeting and night class always reminds me of God’s presence in my life, esp that it is His grace that gives me strength to keep awake and to learn of His Word.

thank God also for fellow pilgrims that walk the journey with me, even though some of them are much older, and i really look forward to the time the younger yfers can also walk together and grow together like this! :):):)

never thought things would go this way when we all left the old church. is not our God providential and loving? :)

:) byebye apple-pie!

P.S. Peanuts!

unique!

hello.

i dont think anyone missed me in school yesterday (it’s 12am in the morning now), especially not the teachers. hmmmm. i wonder what that means.

anyways i just watched Survivor: Somoa at 11pm. it’s v interesting how the human mind works cos they’re all so cunning and slimy etc just for money. and sometimes not even for the money, just for the sake of irritating and annoying people until they cant stand you.

i think i do that sometimes. or many times. i’ve got a lot of cynism and sarcasm and some teachers have talked to me about it and others have hinted. :S

argh. byebye apple-pie..

hello.

thanks to all for their condolences and well-wishes. i’m doing fine, thank God. just quite tired and sleepy.

nothing much to say other than i’ve a lot of homework to do, so i’ve got to get on with all of them. and study for church quiz also (AHHHHHHHHHH).

byebye apple-pie!

hello..

i created a new blog, http://cheesecakemusings.wordpress.com/, to talk about different things in my life in writing form, cos sometimes i dont really know how to speak about things the way they are.. and i guess writing comes more naturally and helps me relieve stress too. go to the blog and you’ll see why i named it sth so random (not really actually).

anyway today was quite a horrible day, not really cos i got scolded (but yes i did get scolded), but because i was quite distracted and everything. oh wellllllll!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

going into full study mode soon. but at the same time also thinking about many other things. sometimes i feel so distant from everyone. people in church, people in school, people at home, people everywhere. and sometimes i think i’m antisocial too..

its esp funny when i try to be more well-behaved sometimes then people think i’m antisocial, and when i’m my usual self then i’m too hyper. i don’t really know how to strike a balance either. but i don’t to be “my usual self” cos it’s that which i don’t like. always disturbing and irritating other people. :(

better be antisocial than be a pest ;)

byebye apple-pieeeee.

P.S. dearest ahma, please don’t worry about me :)

hello.

what a day. but when i sit down i can only remember what struck me most and how i have sinned again and again against my heavenly Father. :(

想珍惜别人却不懂得怎么珍惜。好失败。

i wish i could do sth to show that i’m sincere but i sometimes feel my words are lies themselves. time spent trying to figure on what goes on in others’ minds and feeling confused myself. lost.

just forget everything and study.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

just for the sake of trying out, i would like to see if there will be many views if i type in random and nice key words i think people would search on google or sth. but i dont really think it will work. just trying anyways :P

food cheese apple Hitler Singapore legs feet hand burger computer IT fan piano speakers tissue paper mechanics letters websites pie skies clouds kites love eating digested ingested super onward narcissm interesting flying dreams poo shock running badminton playing Google find floor America heights bungee jumping hurling Ireland Sri Lanka keyboard malls Jurong school university duper fantastic absolutely wow roar blog egoistic counselling council assosiation angel Charlie (LOL) man woman ability brain arm finger plaster fingernail Mythbusters (yay) printers Sony Ericsson Nokia M1 SingTel Acer HP Suzuki how to blast your toilet bowl

HMMM i ran out of ideas towards the end heehee.

but anyway i doubt this will work hahaha. okay enough of randomness.. :)

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“Hear my voice, O God, in my prayer: preserve my life from the fear of the enemy.” (Psalm 64:1)

i’ve been thinking about this verse since prayer meeting on wednesday, and truly, it is the fear of the enemy that keeps us from doing so many things. well, the fear of the enemy keeps us from trusting God — personally, i fear old age a lot, especially with the diseases that come with it..

but as i thought deeper, i remembered that God is in control. when we give our lives to this sovereign God, we know that all things will work together for His glory. what greater privilege do we have to be part of His will? even if i get Alzheimer’s disease or some horrible illness, God will glorify His name through me.

“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)

God is good.. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello :)

thank God for the outing yesterday, and yes, i’ve gotten my mother to excuse me out of a two-day workshop (which lasts from 9am-5pm!).. so i have time to study (and relax).

anyways, back to the outing! thank God for the opportunity to share.. really helped me to think back on 2009′s 9 months so far and thank God for His blessings and things He has taught me. truly the Lord is good and greatly to be praised.. :)

“My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.” (Psalm 73:26)

well, actually i could have thought of more than just 2009.. it went all the way back to 2007 where i first joined the yf properly (hehe).. so many things i’ve learnt, and i’ve really seen myself growing! :) it’s even funny to see myself being so childish and naive last time.

thank God also for good fellowship, talking to 107 also helped me to think back upon the blessings of God, and really appreciate the many things i’ve learnt in 2009. thank God for friends who are loving enough to admonish and help me grow in the grace and the knowledge of Christ. :)

“Whoso loveth instruction loveth knowledge: but he that hateth reproof is brutish.” (Proverb 12:1)

must learn to learn! haha :)

suspicious cannon we saw there :P okay no, it’s just some mechanism for the dam haha -.-

okay byebye apple-pie! :)

P.S. yesterday night, i was thinking just before i slept that if i ever had to have a funeral (i.e. i die before the rapture), i would want Abide With Me to be sung (18/08/09 post!). :) beautiful song with such comforting words. :)

hello.

i’m learning to love and be loved.. in quiet ways. :)

so many things have popped up, suddenly everything seems so uncertain. but yet it’s again so certain that God takes care of everything because we are always His children. once saved, always saved — the perserverance of the saints! anyways that poem was written last night cos i was feeling a bit detached from everywhere.

“Know therefore that the LORD thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love and keep his commandments to a thousand generations.” (Deuteronomy 7:9)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. CANT WAIT FOR TUES :)

I looked ahead and I gazed — the Cross before,
I turned back and I wondered — the World behind.
The Cross beckoned quickly, my heart to take,
The World drew me backward, for my soul it pined.

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The Cross, O so rugged, what a merciless climb,
The World, O so tempting, what a luxurious escape;
The Cross, O so painful, what a labourous journey,
The World, O so alluring, what a charming facade.

-

I sat, and pondered, which path to take,
For richer for poorer, never to forsake.
My heart looked upon all before me,
And I soon began to see.

-

The World in all its captivating sights,
Brought merely temporary flight.
The World in all its wealth and glee,
Only to ensnare, and cause to flee.

-

Surely there must be a better place,
My heart in uncertainty cried out.
I searched high and low,
I went all about –

-

Finally, my eyes turned to the Cross,
A magnificent sight to my soul which was lost.
Burdens are lifted at Calvary,
My soul was set free.

-

The Cross before me, the world behind,
A stranger I walk, a pilgrim in mind.
Each step I takes only leads me closer,
To my heavenly home, to my Heavenly Father.

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Singing as I go, all praise to my God,
For mercy and salvation to me have been brought.
My heart would sing glory, my mouth would give praise,
For He guides and leads me through all that I face.

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hello!

just thought of that. off to sleep now, it’s Holy Communion tomorrow!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i was too lazy to wake up to go. but i may be going on monday since i have [no choice but] to go for a geography supplementary lesson. so i may just walk around in jlp in the morning.. nice :)

people are so interesting. sketching people is also interesting! :) will edit later if i get the time. btw i just cleaned up my shelf (90% done) :) my table etc also v clean. yay :)

i cant wait for tonight’s Bible-study on Revelation :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

methinks i’m going to wake up at 5.30am tomorrow and go around to jurong lake park to catch the sunrise. peace and serendipity. hmm i wonder if i will wake up though. i really hope i will! sleep early and wake up early.. :D

anyways i’ve been in a Race and Ethnicity Awareness Programme in toa payoh these past two days, was quite interesting but v passive and just dry at many times so i kind of got bored and started doodling around. i specially brought a book the second day to draw, so i shall show you :D

pardon the lack of artistic beauty.. :) ignore the comments haha :P

ugly hands. i drew this while waiting in the bus for some guy who wasnt coming -.-

random signs and stuff i saw along the way. then just some other sketching in the toa payoh HDB hub.

some notes and some more drawing.

yay. okay i’m going to sleep already. sleep early wake early. :)

byebye apple-pie!

P.S. special new theme to fit in those doodles :P

hello!

i cannot wait for 8 september! OUTING DAY as strangers and pilgrims.. :) too bad the uni students cant go :( but anyways pray for good weather, good fellowship and encouragement!

may be flying kites tooooo! AHHHHH :):):)

^_^ cannot wait.

byebye apple-pie!

hello :)

beautiful skies i took when i was in school.

work work work! byebye apple-pie!

hello!

nice tree i caught when i was walking to the bus stop.

study study study! i’m going to start working hard for the EYE. so many things i want to do, but they can wait for a month.. i’m kind of excited for the EYE cos this time i know i’ll be prepared, and i know i’m studying for God.. :) no more tomfoolery in class, no more getting distracted by other things!

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i feel like writing again. my hands are itching but my brain doesnt have any ideas, or doesnt know how to put those ideas into work. rusty brain haha. i feel kind of artistic heh.

this week has been somewhat less busy for me, like got less things to do and stuff. and i felt happier.. sort of. thank God. :) well, been a v bad Christian testimony in school again.. sometimes i’m okay, other times i just let it go. :( must continue to work harder at it.

sometimes i’m a little embarrassed about doing “Christian things”, cos no one else does it, and it’s almost as if they’re labeled abnormal or sth. and it’s worse cos after i do those things, and then i do sth not so nice, it’s like i’m making fun of Christ name, like being hypocritical..

but anyways, Christians should be in the world, but not of the world.. so i must continue to work harder!

finding it more and more difficult to talk to my classmates cos i dont do things they do, like listen to pop music, go crazy about Korean or Japanese boybands, etc. hmm! it’s okay, i have my own things to do anyway ^^

tried to find a pic to put here cos it’s so boring without them but i cant find any. so byebye apple-pie :P

hello!

it’s been almost 4 months since i started this blog, with a grand total of 93 posts (not counting this one).. it’s interesting to look back and think on just these 4 months, so many things which have happened and how fast time goes. even though this is such a small blog, thank God for seeing me through just this year (and every other year of my life).. :)

so many things have happened, so many things i’ve learnt.. thank God :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

thank you to all who have shown concern for me and encouraged me.. whether it was what i posted on fb or here, thank you. i’ve been thinking a lot about it through the day and i really realised that i cant do anything about what’s happening even though i worry a lot.. so all i can do and will do will be to pray more and more each day.

thank God for His mercies toward me.. :)

anyways i was kept awake for most of last night thinking.. somehow my head went haywire and wouldnt let me rest. horrible, but somehow i managed to keep awake in school! i didnt even doze off during geography (heh)! :)

:) byebye apple-pie!

hello.

(i dont really know why i put this pic in. adds colour to my blog haha.)

i’ve been a bit stressed lately (amazingly), not really because of school work, but because i’ve been thinking a lot (again).. been getting the feeling that a lot of people expect more of me, which is sth i really cant take.. but i dont know whether it’s me putting pressure on myself cos i know there’s so much more room for improvement.

sometimes i really wander what it’s like to be a normal 15 year old like anyone else. i just think people dont expect them to behave better, to be more matured, to be more disciplined cos they’re none the wiser.

but then i remembered that if i’m doing anything, it’s for God’s glory. and i shouldn’t think of what people have to think of me, it’s God that i account to, and it’s God standard i’m reaching for, not what people expect of me.

nonetheless, i hope people aren’t having their high hopes pinned on me. i’m just a 15 year old, so many things i dont know, so many things i’ve yet to see. and it’s difficult cos everyone else gets to “enjoy” and i’m trying my best to behave (but of course i dont). kind of discouraging sometimes.

oh well, i must let Him have his way with me!

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i just realised what was missing in my life — a planner! hahaha i realise i’m v disorganised and i dont know what i’m going to do for the day or what. no wonder i’ve been such a bad student. anyways i really have to spend less time on the com from now on so i can finish up all my work etc. starting to feel nervous (not all of that anxiety is for myself) and stress is coming. finally (haha).

everyone’s been so busy and caught up with work, makes me feel so helpless that i cant help anyone else. but we all know God can help us :) i’ve been realising the importance of doing qt regularly and keeping communion with God.. really to find strength in Him and in His Word.

please jy everyone and dont pass out half way. my heart will break for you all. :(

anyways, the more important thing is..

(i really like this design. short and sweet and special!)

are our lives worth the living? what are we doing for our souls, the only thing eternal that can never be demolished? hmm take time to think about it, and if you want to know more, do drop a reply or sth. gospel rally, 7pm next saturday (will bring you there from je!). guaranteed that you will be blessed!

okay i need to go and do my homework already.

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m dead tired, cant believe within 3 days i’ve done so many things! thank God for strength and His love. it really doesnt feel like one week has past.. more like a month! so many things i want to do but i just dont have enough brain to do them anymore. hahaha.

i want to study church history!

okay byebye apple-pie!

hello,

Abide with me — fast falls the eventide,

The darkness deepens — Lord with me abide;

When other helpers fail and comforts flee,

Help of the helpless, O abide with me!

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Swift to its close ebbs out life’s little day,

Earth’s joys grow dim, it’s glories pass away;

Change and decay in all around I see –

O Thou who changest not, abide with me.

-

I need Thy presence every passing hour –

What but Thy grace can foil the tempter’s power?

Who like Thyself my guide and stay can be?

Through cloud and sunshine, O abide with me!

-

Hold Thou Thy word before my closing eyes,

Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies;

Heaven’s morning breaks and earth’s vain shadows flee –

In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me!

*

hope that encouraged you as much as it encouraged me. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

“My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.” (Psalm 73:26)

i wont attempt to describe the peace in my heart. :)

*

i miss carrying this little lovely baby!

ok i have a super load of other things to do now. byebye apple-pie!

P.S. i realised how much i’ve missed writing after writing an article for the school newsletter! hmm i wish i had time to embark on a small project or sth, improve my writing skills.. oh well! i was thinking i could write sth based in church history, like a story of how the people had so much faith even though they were ultimately matyred for the gospel. so interesting! :)

hello.

just travelled back from SGBF just now with some company (it’s not good to walk/take bus with me cos i’m really bad company), and i realised after we parted how bad i’ve been. :( anyways i’ve been kind of disoriented recently, no time to step back and rest more. need to learn to be more disciplined and well-behaved.

i realised how much i’m afraid to lose people around me, yet i never treat them as well as i think i can. makes me feel so upset with myself. but at the same time, i think it’s all so complicated and confusing cos everyone else has a thousand and one thoughts and it’s difficult to express myself in the correct way such that it doesnt lead to misunderstanding. so i just end up being a nuisance.

so many people to treasure but only one heart to love. a sinful and selfish heart.

never enough faith to believe, never enough love to trust.

*

v sleepy and still have chem to study!

byebye apple-pie!

PS to auntie, sorry for shooting the rubber band at you. i know my shots all v power. :) heehee

hello!

an ambassador of Christ! i am an ambassador of Christ! and my sole message, motivation and work should be Christ! what a reminder i had today.

okay v tired, tomorrow eband working at a new place (:D), but i hope i dont get lost getting there (hmm). marked the quizes just now. dont know whether to laugh or cry.

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’m baking cookies now. horrible failure :( hahaha and now all of them have a bit of baking paper stuck to the bottom LOL. :) but somehow still edible. so while i munch on one of these rock hard cookies, let me tell you what happened!

i started out all wrong and mixed everything together (really everything together) and somehow a mixture was formed. i had intially planned to make peanut butter cookies, but when the mixture was formed, i realised i forgot to add in peanut butter -_- so i just went to make them anyway.

then i did a nicer and proper one, but the mixture was like, very hot (cos you’re supposed to melt the butter and sugar and peanut butter), so i anyhow made them into cookie shapes. but i guess they should be more edible than the first batch.

anyways i wanted to do them for yf refreshments but looks like no one will be eating the first batch (unless you really want to?), so i hope the second batch will be okay. hobo joan who never ever paid attention in class for F&N but pushed all the work to her partner.

will try to make some more tomorrow (ugh). haha. oh, and the conclusion of the whole matter: just buy the ready-made mixtures. so much less work. i wish i had those baking fingers of simone. heh.

haha looks edible, it IS edible, just more difficult. dont expect any elderly or young ones to be eating them.

anyways the second batch was chao-ta -_- i need more hands-on. otherwise will never get married hahaha. just kidding. every thing is in God’s hands. :)

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so tired! and i have tons to study. but thank God for strength. somehow every day doesnt seem to be so bad when it all comes to a close. 24 hours, how many things can be done in it? how many things can actually happen? somehow everything just works out.

thank God. :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i never seem to be getting well. cos i never seem to be taking my medicine regularly. heh.

v tired but many more things to do.. thank God for strength! :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

life in school seems better somehow, surprisingly. thank God for good days and bad. i dont really know how to describe what i’m feeling now, like a mix of everything. hmm.

“What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.” (Psalm 56:3)

it’s interesting how the future can look so bright and bleak at the same time. but anyways, it’s not up to me to decide where i walk, but to just walk aright, knowing that i dont create my own path. it’s so difficult to trust and obey sometimes. so egocentric and power-minding (haha). oh well.

sometimes i wish i could hold on to someone’s hand and walk, because i dont have enough faith to hold on to God’s hand and just walk through the storms. believe to see or see to believe? so perilous yet so comforting that although you’ve never seen God, you know He can never fail because He works in your life. so daunting yet so unwavering.

“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” (Psalm 23:4)

byebye apple-pie!

(photo gotten from: http://conatgion.deviantart.com/art/Storms-72269863)

hello!

aiyo today only got to play two rounds of netball for fear that i would make myself sicker (see! i took good care of myself :D). and the worst thing of all, i didnt bring my camera! oh man. :( but at least got ahma’s cool camera! hahaha :)

and i didnt see auntie at netball :( and 107 also. 你们两个太乖了，还留在家里做功课、读书！

happened to look out of the window after studying, and i saw this!

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello!

YAY :) i think you know why already!

yay :):):)

byebye apple-pie!

hello.

i’m tired of thinking. i’m just going to give it all up.

byebye apple-pie.

hello!

this is a bottle tree! and we’re going to see sth like that tomorrow :)

i havent started planning my games at all, but i did get a good rest after a tiring stint this morning.. thank God for strength, but i feel as if i really dont know where i’m going, with a lot of mixed emotions and stuff. will show you why when i get my camera back from my sis!

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i think this photo has appeared in my blog so many times, but it always reminds me of the peaceful tranquility spent at the beach back in the church camp. i miss that place so much, and i do miss the time there. sometimes you dont know what you can lose until you lose it all, and you want to take it back, but you just cant.

looking through my blog brings back memories i dont know whether i would want to remember.. but of course, God makes no mistakes in what He has chosen to let me go through, and i suppose it’s all part of the learning that makes us all better soldiers for Christ! well, soft training means soft soldiers, so may God give us the strength to go ahead and be strong in Him!

thinking about all these things just makes me feel like working so hard that i will forget them. hmm, haha.. oh well, what’s past is past, so i cant change anything.

“And it shall come to pass, that as ye were a curse among the heathen, O house of Judah, and house of Israel; so will I save you, and ye shall be a blessing: fear not, but let your hands be strong.” (Zechariah 8:13)

God’s promise, my hope.

byebye apple-pie!

(photo of the cool bottle tree gotten from: http://hongti-lim.blogspot.com/)

hello.

methinks i should have gotten a week of mc so i would have properly recovered and can go for the church outing well and strong, cos now my sore throat is back! >:( but my runny nose is getting a lot better, hmm. anyways tomorrow will be a long and hot day (i half hope it rains, ok not really cos we + the student councillors have put a lot of effort into the work) so.. i’m going to run off after the celebrations on account that i’m really sick. :o

anyways, on a sadder and more solemn note,

“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” (Matthew 5:16)

i havent been a good Christian testimony in school, which is a really sad thing to say esp because i have wanted to, but because of my pride and my wanting to show off my so-called intelligence, i’ve thrown everyth i’ve learnt to the wind..

“If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man’s religion is vain.” (James 1:26)

“For in many things we offend all. If any man offend not in word, the same is a perfect man, and able to bridle the whole body.” (3:2)

i wish i could go around with masking tape on my mouth. oh well, better learn and remember!

okay got to rest already! byebye apple-pie!

P.S. to ahma and auntie, i guai-ly followed your remedy of sore throats (to drink coke + salt) but i stupidly put the salt in before drinking any of the coke, and then it overflowed a lot. heh. 真聪明！:)

hello!

walked in a contingent today ._. so boring and tiring.

anyways methinks i’m going to get myself a watch cos i’m always so unconscious of time and i’m always late for school. hmm. CXLF has H1N1 :( but nvm cos it’s appears to be nth much, and she’s recovering well, only she wont be able to join us for the church outing :( she’s the first person i know personally who has H1N1. both cool and sad..

imagine that glorious day we will all be in heaven. ah :)

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

within 3 months i’ve fallen sick twice :( should have rested at home today even tho i didn’t have an mc, would have helped me to get better faster. anyways was going around very cranky and distracted in school today, couldn’t concentrate on anything. :(:(:( will skip school tomorrow if i still dont feel better so i dont waste time disturbing other people in school!

yay i finally bothered to upload photos on my computer and charge my camera! :) so i have some photos to show you!

hee hee :)

hello kitty?! doesnt belong to me :P

haha dont know if you all can see whose hello kitty that was :)

nice sunset i happened to catch the other day! :)

我好累啊! hmm, i need to have tough training for the future! cannot allow myself to get sick and laze around, especially not when i grow older. then dont need to eat already :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

i’ve just spent 3.5 hours going to, staying at and coming home from polyclinic. but still thankful that even though it was a long wait, at least every thing is free (because my mom’s a civil servant) and service was good.. :) anyways a lot of people are getting sick. :( please get well soon! :) then we can all go for the bottle tree park outing together.. heh :)

going to tighten my braces later! :o so tiring.. but anyways thank God for strength!

“See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.” (Ephesians 5:15-16)

circumspectly just means prudently. was reminded of this verse as i was listening to audio Bible which i downloaded from Sermon Audio, and was reminded of what someone had said to me quite a long time ago.. hmm!

anyways i had a really weird dream this morning. hmm. (random!)

byebye apple-pie! :)

hello.

i want to wake up really early one of these days and walk to school. but i’m a bit scared to walk alone but at the same time i want some time alone to think. hmm!

anyways has anyone been thinking of me the whole day? i’ve been sneezing more than usual~ :P missed a certain ahma in church too :( and i also miss playing netball/frisbee/etc with people, but that will be for the bottle tree park outing! :):):)

hmm. thoughts thoughts and more thoughts. :(

byebye apple-pie!

hello!

finally a proper update :) but no photos! :(

anyways :) the weekends are here, and next weekend, we’re off to Bottle Tree Park, some ulu ulu place? haha no la, actually i have no idea where it is either, but i’m one of them planning games so it should be quite fun (for me) :P then the monday following that is a holiday! :D i hope someone will plan something so we can all have fun together? :D

it’s already 1 August! isn’t it amazing how fast the year passes by? soon it will be the year end holidays, and then YF camp, and then Christmas! and a new baby will be born (:D), and so many many many things will be happening. truly, it is only through God’s grace we are able to pass our days will peace and serenity.. :)

“For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night.” (Psalm 90:4)

with every passing day, we’re drawing closer to the return of our Lord! :) can you imagine that beautiful beautiful day where we will all be transported to heaven in the twinkling of an eye. i just cant imagine my heart leaping out, like free from all the sin of this earth, and into a wonderful heaven where we will be sinless. :):):)

heaven makes me so excited!

“Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.” (1 Corinthians 15:51-52)

i cant wait for that day! :)

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okay i know my blog looks super weird now, will do sth to it asap :P

byebye apple-pie! :)